Jacquelyn's World

How Mexico changed my life

2006-05-26T19:17:00.000-07:00

Oh boy, here we go! My husband and I met in USA. He was Mexican and I was of course American. We met at work, fell in love and then got married. 1 year and half later he proposed we move to Mexico after 9/11, I thought he was insane. Prior to moving to Mexico, I had already learned and knew about the delicious food, the culture and everything because I had met and lived with his Family in the USA. It was still a CULTURE SHOCK when I went there. I loved it there, the food, the shopping at the Markets, just everything. His state was the Capital for the Mariposas (Butterflies) that flew once a year to this special part of Mexico. I learned how to make tortillas, how to cook and bake awesome Mexican food, and how to clean. Well, I would also like to add my daughter was born in Mexico with natural child birth and I don’t regret anything and in fact I still miss it sometimes. :) So much more but, for another day.

Jacquelyn

See more progress on: Mexico

I OWN A CAR!!!

2006-05-26T19:04:00.000-07:00

A 1992 Toyota Camry I bought with my Tax Return! WOOHOO!!!

See more progress on: Own a car

Is All Love Lost?

2006-04-29T15:32:00.000-07:00

Maybe I am just Traditional or still have Hope for the relationship I had with my ex-husband.

Everyone tells me to move on and get a divorce but I don't believe that having another relationship will solve how I feel and getting a divorce to me just doesn't seem to be the right thing to do.

I always believed you Fall in Love, Get Married and Live Happily Ever After...but what ever happened to the Ever After part? Was I Really supposed to be separated from my husband?

When I think about moving on it just doesn't feel right. I haven't spoke to my ex-husband in more than two years.

I also feel so part of his Culture and Traditions, it hurts whenever I see someone from that Country or place. The Language, The Food, The Music, its too much for me. Its as much part of me as it is my daughters and she was born in Mexico! Its almost unreal. No one really understands but that is ok, I guess they are not supposed to.

Other than that, I feel lost.

The Reality

2006-04-23T09:27:00.000-07:00

I went on a date last night which caused me to come to the conclusion that I do not want to be with anyone anytime soon or possibly never. I like being Single. I think I will always like to be Single and I could never Compromise or make any sacrifices in any relationship because I am so set in doing things my way. Yes I get lonely sometimes, but who cares? I get over it.

The date was really nice, he brought me Red Roses, which in the last 5 dates I have been on these past two years the guys have brought me nothing. He also reminded me of my ex-husband, who I am not fully over. He was a nice person.

I also know my mother has great dreams for me to be married so she doesn't feel like she has to 'take care of me' anymore. I, on the other hand, do not want that nor feel that way. I will eventually live on my own and that will make me happy. Not only will I be Independent but also Financially Stable.

I am working on two big businesses. That and spending time with my Daughter is my passion right now.

Walk Away by Kelly Clarkson

2006-04-18T21:31:00.000-07:00

I am not a big fan of Kelly Clarkson...but it seems I like her stuff more and more...but anyway she wrote this song that just touched me. Here are the Lyrics:

You've got your mother and your brother, every other
Under cover telling you what to say
You think I'm stupid
But the truth is, that it's Cupid
Baby, loving you has made me this way

So before you point your finger
Get your hand off of my trigger,oh yah
You need to know this situations getting old
And now the more you talk, the less I can say
I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go?
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standing here
Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey
Just walk away
Just walk away, Just walk away

I waited here for you like a kid waiting after school
So tell me how come you never showed
I gave you everything and never asked for anything
And look at me, I'm all alone
So before you start defending, baby
Stop all your pretending

I know ,you know ,I know
So what's the point in being slow,
"Let's get this show on the road today"

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standing here
Hey,Hey, Hey, Hey
Just walk away
Just walk away, Just Walk Away

I want a love
I want a fire
To feel the burn
My desires
I want a man by my side
Not a boy who runs and hides
Are you going to fight for me
Die for me
Live and breathe for me
Do you care for me
Cause if you don't then just leave

I'm looking for attention
Not another question
Should you stay or should you go
Well, if you don't have the answer
Why you still standing here
Hey, Hey, Hey, Hey
Just walk away If you dont have the answer
Walk Away
Just Walk Away
Then Just Leave
oh yeah

walk away(x2)

That song means alot to me. Thanks Kelly for Writing it! :)

Bad Mom

2006-04-08T21:35:00.000-07:00

Today I was a little frustrated and it caused me to overthink my situation. My daughter was in my face the whole day. I was getting annoyed, what parent wouldn't? I had spent some time with her, I took her outside and watched her play with her 'horsey'(horse cart) and her 'wee' (slide) and then of course the hours came and she kept throwing little fits here and there and I of course did not like that. I do not have alot of patience and I usually like to do peaceful things like work on my business ventures.

Well, I was thinking maybe I should have never been a mom. I am not good at this and maybe this isn't really meant for me but it just happened and I will probably be the mother she had wanted because I don't meet her needs and that I am just not cut out for this.

Well, after all the fits and whining throughout the day, right after my daughter's bath she was climbing on me kissing me and whispering in my ear to play fun with grandma.

Then, at that moment I realized I love my daughter and I would always want to be a mother especially to her, no matter what.

I know its been a long time since My Last Post....

2006-04-07T21:14:00.000-07:00

My Focus has been nothing but Money, Money, Money and how to get and make more. I was trying to get My Jerky Business off the ground but realize for the same amount of Time, Effort and Marketing I could be Making a WHOLE heck of alot more. So I have officially changed my Focus. Which is something I didn't want to do because I am such a Opportunity Hopper but I think I found one I will be doing for a while and will be able to get My Life where I had Wanted and PLANNED for it to be this year.

Still Single. Yes Sex and the City...or more like No Sex and Rural Community for Me! Oh well, I guess that is why they invented toys. LOL. My mom is trying to fix me up with this Latino. He is a few years older than me, already been married also...but I don't know if I want to go there again. The last guy I dated was a prick, MAJOR PRICK and I never really got anything beneficial out of it. Lets face it people the Dating Scene Sucks already know! But I also know what it is like to be Married and what it is like to be a Single Mom. HA! None of it is really bad nor really good. That is why Technology invented good plastic for people like me!

Whom, whats to come? Well, I figure once I am living comfortable I can cut out the work hours and go see some family and go on some vacations. My WHY for Financial Independence is yes, Family but also Freedom. At work I go as far I can till I know when I had reached my limit as far as the button pushing goes. I am not good at this Employee stuff, never have been. I do not like people telling me what to do. My boss is lucky he is as laid back as he is LOL. Or I am, I think another Employer would have fired me by now LOL. Not that I do it intentionally but I know I am just not meant for this kind of Lifestyle and everyday I try to grip the reality of what I live now. Being a Single Mom, alot of things happen...you moods go from Anger to Depression...although I know I am not depressive but you know, when you have alot of time to think about things, it does things to you. No one understands though and its hard to come to grips with that also. See! This is why I quit Writing, because I can't. :*(

But anyway new subject. So since I haven't been to school since Job Corps when I came back from Mexico. I decided to get Certified in this Real Estate thing at work so I know I am not killing all my brain cells doing repitious nonsense all day. Calling people and Helping them into their Program. At least then I feel like I did something Important this year.

I was thinking of cutting down some of My Projects and maybe bringing in a couple of quality ones. I am not sure. I feel like I work so much my head spins and then I cannot remember normal things. If that makes any sense. Oh well.

This is My Year though. No more Paycheck to Paycheck.

Bruk's Place

2006-03-24T18:37:00.000-08:00

Bruk's Place

Blog Envy - It's all my mother's fault...

2006-03-24T16:36:00.000-08:00

Blog Envy - It's all my mother's fault...

My Las Vegas Vacation

2006-02-19T20:57:00.000-08:00

Well it all started Friday Morning at 5 am. I got ready and got my daughter ready and my friend came over and picked us and immediately we went to the 96.3 to see a Psychic who is there every Friday before we headed out for Vegas.

She told me some very interesting things about myself. I had asked her about Personal Relationships and she had told me right now I am like a Wounded Warrior. I keep Relationships at Sword Length and I am content if they do not work out and it is pointless for me to persue them. She said I will probably be thinking about falling in love in 2 years. She also said that I like to care for others and I should be a teacher of some sort for a Career. She said she also sees me taking classes and seeking more education. I thought the whole thing was very interesting and will be doing a full reading in the near future.

Well after the whole Radio Station reading we headed out for Vegas after we had Breakfast at McDonalds.

Friday night after we went into Vegas we went and saw my dad and let him see his Grandbaby for the second time in his life...it has been two years since he last saw her...he said she was adorable. She was scared of him at first but then after a while warmed up to my dad which made me feel better. Friday night we were going to hang out with my dad but he had to work late so we took the kids to dinner at a Casino and then toured the Strip back to the house and stopped to get groceries then decided to hit the hay because it had been a long drive up to Vegas. Ahhh sleep.

The next day we woke up and had breakfast and drawing at the TimeShares Breakfast Roo. I was really surprised that they had a theme of "Bloody Mary's and Donuts" I really didn't think they were REAL Bloody Mary's LOL. I also thought they were pretty good but quite strong. Then after the Breakfast we headed out and went to go see my dad and head out to 'Circus Circus'for the kids and then check out the new Casinos on the Strip like Paris Casino, NY, NY Casino...they all looked Grand and Beautiful. Then FINALLY we took the kids back home to play and sleep and then headed out to Sam's Town so that the BIG Kids Could Play! LOL. I played my usual Black Jack and I learned Roulette from my friend and my dad just watched and then we had this Wonderful dinner at the Casino...Steak and Crab Cakes, Soup, Baked Potato and what it seemed this half gallon size German Beer. It was all really good food. Then we all decided to go home and go to bed since we had to go back Sunday to Utah. I said Goodbye to my dad and then we went home and went to bed. But one of my favorite things I love to do when I am at a Casino is sit at the Black Jack Table with a Pina Colada and Play...it is one of my favorite things and I make sure every time when I am in Wendover or Vegas to keep my own Personal Tradition alive. :) I also only lost $20. :)

The next day we were out and headed back to Utah. It seemed like the drive took forever. It was pretty quiet most the way back. We also stopped and saw my friend's sister.

About half way back I had received a phone call from Brent Hunsaker of Channel 4 News about the whole 12DailyPro thing...I won't say exactly what we talked about but it turned into a heated discussion.

That pretty much ended my weekend. Next weekend is Convention :) in North Carolina!

I am sad

2006-01-19T20:17:00.000-08:00

I am so sad and depressed. My life is just flashed before my eyes...I am no longer with my husband and I am a single mom...and I cannot fathom the idea of being with anyone ever again...I am so lonely it hurts...I have literally anything I can possibly want...and it doesn't help. My poor daughter...I always focus on all this money I am making and my websites and being online yet I don't spend enough time with her. I am so bad. I remember when I was still pregnant and living in Mexico with my husband, who is no longer my husband now. :*( I have a my beautiful Daughter,great Job, great Friends, all the stuff I want and I am so miserable. I hope I am PMSing because I cannot stop crying even if I wanted too. I wish I could go back or something, anything...Oh just make it stop...why do things happen the way they do?? Why? They say we choose our own destiny then why would do this to myself then? No one understands and I am not going to try to make them too either. I guess I just have to "deal" and move on. But I really can't because I don't get it. I used to believe in fairy tales and I learned a lesson there let me tell you. AND no marriage is Perfect and I am not even sure worth it. God I am so sad!

TGR Action Steps

2005-11-20T21:40:00.000-08:00

Ok I pretty much think I have everything covered for My Supplies.

1) Think and Grow Rich Book
2) Action Pack
3) Pen
4) 3x5 Filiing Cards
5 Yellow Highlighter

Now I just need to pick a half hour everyday to do this...it has to be at the same time everyday according to the book...and between 5-7 Days.

Hmmmm I want to do this the FULL 7 Days. I am going to say 1 pm everyday.

It also says that I must show My Family and Friends to show them that I Am Serious. Interesting. I guess I will need to do that.

So tomorrow, I will begin on the FIRST Action Step and then Log it. I will be at work when I do my first half hour with this but I will be on "Break" time since I work the Split Shift.

"Think and Grow Rich" by Napoleon Hill

2005-11-18T13:52:00.000-08:00

I am going to change the Focus of "Jacquelyn's World" Blog a little bit because I am working on an Experiment to Change My Life and I already have 4 Blogs and I do not want to start another one. :)

I am entrigued by the "Think and Grow Rich" book by Mr. Hill. I want to develop the knowledege I learn and make it REAL. I am also using my Blog to track my progress and hold myself accountable.

The funny thing is I had read it the first time, had all my notes in it and then I lost it. The funny part is I was drawn to the book again. So I had ordered it off of Amazon.com, the version I had ordered was "Think and Grow Rich Action Pack" and the original version which I think will also help me better acheive Maximum Success. I want to make this book my primary focus for the next 12 months and I want to track my progress with My Blog.

So Beginning Sunday, November 20th I will be starting the TGR (Think and Grow Rich) Process.

Happy Halloween!

2005-10-31T20:46:00.000-08:00

Sigh. What a day...Work was Great as usual. I Won a Halloween Contest. I LOVE Winning. :)

So, I finally got done with the last guy I was seeing...he and I were sooooooooooooo not right for each other, in more ways than one LOL...anyway...I always saw this hot guy at work...OMG I think he's hot and I finally get the nerve to even ask about him and it turns out he has a girlfriend! FIGURES!

So, now loneliness is striking me again, but whatever I am used it to it. 2 years, what else is new???

I did take my daughter Trick or Treating! It was great. She was tired so I had to cut it a little short but she had fun and got some candy that I do not want her to eat LOL. 2 year olds do not need Candy.

I think I am just too weird to get involved with anyone. I am also worried about getting involved with egomaniacs and I have to worry...UGH no. Although dating complete nerds and jerks are not at the top of my list neither. Where can I Win? Not likely. Plus, who wants a Woman with Baggage and a small gut who could care less if you loved her or not?? :D Plus I don't think any man out there deserves Me anyway.
:P

Anyway, I am working on a Plan to Make LOTS of Money so I can hire an Housekeeper and just do the stuff I enjoy and be with my daughter, and let me tell you with the stuff I am doing lately it isn't no Pipe Dream.

I miss the 90's. Sigh. Time just flies by...I cannot believe I will be 24 next year. Do you even KNOW how scary that is???

I will be working on a Divorce in 2006 and I will also be moving to Oregon. BIG CHANGES AHEAD.

My Favorite Holiday that is coming up...since this is the Holiday Season...is Thanksgiving...Surprise Surprise! :D I love the Cranberries with Turkey, Mashed Potatoes and Stuffing...MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Wow, almost 2006...kind of crazy...

Sitting here....

2005-10-24T20:05:00.000-07:00

and enjoying a Bowl of Hamburger Helper with Hot Sauce and a Glass of Milk...I know, not the best Combination but I like it...just thinking and thinking...

I am thinking about the past...like always...would if things have been different? Hmmmm I guess it really doesn't matter. I am also thinking about if their is True Love out there for me...even though I try not to think about it because I don't know if I could do that again. Relationships are alot of work. Everyone I meet just sucks. LOL. I know I haven't written much lately. Just trying not to Stress too much. I am Proud of my Daughter! She finally went Poo Poo in the Potty! LOL. I caught her just in time and she FINALLY understood the Potty I think. She is only two and she is so sweet and smart. Sigh. It kind of makes me Pregnant/Baby Hungry sometimes. LOL.

Being Single isn't all that bad. I mean, I do things when I want and I buy what I want. It is really cool. I sleep and eat when I want.

So I am kind of seeing this guy I met at Job Corps. OMG it is the MOST Dramatic thing I have to go through. I really don't think it is worth it for the both of us. But! I don't know I think he kind of disagrees. Anyway I have no clue what he wants or what is going on...

Anyway, I am pretty Content right now. By January I will be maxed out of My AutoSurf account which will bring me $2k every two weeks. I Hope and Pray this Program lasts forever or at least a few years so I can get rich. LOL.

I just realized I still want to Sing Professionally. I know, a Crazy thought. High School thats all I wanted to do. But now, "Single Mom, gotta Pay the Bills" UGH Mentality. Makes me sick.

"Oh shes a gold digger" I love that song. Especially the guy in the background. Nevermind decided to change the music. Now Maroon 5.

Biting my tongue as far as what I was going to say LOL...I will just keep that to myself. :)

Anyway, got to do some work on my Other Blog!

UGH Frustrations

2005-10-20T20:54:00.000-07:00

Where do I start? Hmmmmmm...My (Ex)Husband is a Bastard for not really loving or caring about me??? HUH? YEAH. You sacrifice so much and get so little and then just end messed up anyway AND a Single Mom. I am not exaggerating about those sacrifices either! I moved all the way to Mexico for him just so he could be closer to HIS Family. I did things in Bed I didn't want to do, I let him verbally and mentally abuse me...I could go on and on! HA! Now two years later I still can't get over the JERK! That is what pisses me off the most! I am so bitter you HAVE NO IDEA! I am going to PUBLISH this Post and MAKE SURE EVERYONE KNOWS HOW I FEEL!!! I was married for 4 years and I used to say I would only be married once and live HAPPILY EVER AFTER! HA! I am not quite sure but I think that Bastard may have cheated on me too. I do not HAVE Proof but I am ALMOST POSITIVE! I need to go out Clubbing so bad...I think I am about to lose my mind.

What a Weekend!

2005-10-16T17:04:00.000-07:00

Saturday I was VERY Busy. I had to go to an Open House with my Upline from AVON, who had an Open House for AVON, Pampered Chef, Stampin Up and Homemade Gourmet. Since, my friend already sells Pampered Chef and I already sell AVON, I decided to buy some Homemade Gourmet. Then, I had to go to an Body Shop Party and I had spent some money there and will be hosting a Party with her next month. Then I had stayed the night at my friend's house and then I came home the following morning.

I had been thinking about my latest ventures and what else I would like to set out doing. I first want to get all my Programs in order and I was thinking of starting a Paid to Read Website and a Classifieds Ads Website and make money Online that way with those Streams of Income, but that is more in the future and when I have more time Marketing My Programs and Learning Marketing on the Web. There are really so many options out there now to make money on the web. I would still like to try out alot of Programs and get my Direct Sales Programs off the ground (AVON, Jerky and Greeting Cakes). There is so much I want to do. I cannot wait till I have more time with this and be making the money I need to do with 12DP.

That is all I think about- Making Money Online. I would love to make enough to Work From Home. Meaning pulling in at LEAST $4,000-$6,000 every two weeks Online WITHOUT AutoSurfing. I also would love the time to work on my Direct Sales Companies. Building Downlines, Sales and Fundraising and such.

I know I can do it and I am trying to make that possible.

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2005-10-14T20:12:00.000-07:00

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UGH Change

2005-10-09T18:18:00.000-07:00

You know, alot of the time I like to stay comfortable in my comfort zone, you that is why they call it that. Now, things are changing and I don't like it too much. I guess things always change and some are more obvious than others.

I went to see a friend this Saturday and things went fine. Which surprised me. My daughter went along and had alot of fun. Now I can sense things are going to start to change and I really don't know if I want that. From what I remember from Relationships is nothing good really comes out of them. The last time I saw someone ended up turning out to be a bad experience, actually all my previous experiences were like that?

My Dad is 50 and he is Single. He had only married once and that was it for him, and sometimes I think you know, once is enough for me too. My Ex Mother in Law was the same way. I think some people are meant to live and be alone and others are not. I know for sure, my mother isn't. She is the opposite. No matter what relationship I am in, you can still sense the space I put in between it. My Ex-Husband used to tell me that. Well, he also told me alot of things. I am trying to make this Post as General as possible without getting too specific.

Maybe I am just too stubborn, I don't know.

But I had a good time with my friend on Saturday and we are going to see each other again. Another thing about Relationships is they make me nervous.

Funny, you want something for the longest time and then when you get it you are like???

I always wished my husband told me ALL the things I have always wanted to hear, if he did I probably wouldn't be Single right now. :(

Like I was saying, I get used to being Single. Doing things my way. Things seem to roll alot smoother that way, especially if I am in Control.

Being a Single Mom is even harder. I can't believe my Ex hasn't tried to find me or contact me. My Daughter and I must long gone and forgotten. Jerk.

Another thing I disliked about Marriage was being put second. Men are first and they pay the bills, blah blah, blah. Women are here to Cook, Clean and Make Babies and becareful if you don't do it right he maybe out there looking for his Mistress!

Sigh.

Jerky Distributor!

2005-10-08T07:32:00.000-07:00

I had decided I also want to Build a Downline and Sell Jerky. So, last night I got my own Store Front and an Auto Shipment of $12.00 for Jerky! I am VERY Excited! My Combination of Love of Food and Being Online made it easy for me to decide to do this.

Visit My Online Store and check out the Payout Levels and let me know if you want to sell Jerky or just buy it! But, with this Business you can do COMPLETELY Online if you want. You can also buy the by the Cases!

Jackie's Famous Jerky Direct

2005-09-30T20:40:00.000-07:00

I am just testing out PhotoBucket's

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and Glitter. :) Have a NICE Day.

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2005-09-30T20:38:00.000-07:00

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Went Back to Work....

2005-09-29T21:44:00.000-07:00

It was good. I Love My Job but the Hours Suck. I was Welcomed Back and that was nice also. I am looking toward getting a New Job Position in My Department. It won't be for a couple of months from now but I am Preparing now. We have Evaluations coming up next week and I plan to tell my employer what My Goals are for the Company.

I won't be moving to Oregon anytime soon. Too many things going on right now.

My Daughter is still sick. She has a horrible cough and she is tired of going to the Doctors. Since coming back from Oregon she has been acting like a spoiled brat. I am trying to get her back on track.

My Internet Money Ventures have been working out Great! I Plan to do more Extensive Stuff Online to Make More Money.

I am also part of a Weight Management Class at Curves and I have not been following My Diet. I know, Shame on Me. I cannot afford to go grocery shopping for all the food but I have been kind of watching what I eat. I am just not in the mood for Dieting or anything else right now. I still feel like I am Floating. I know it is kind of a dramatic word and I am not really for Drama but that is how I feel. I have felt like this for a VERY Long time. Going through the Motions. It could be Depression, I don't know. I don't really consider myself a "Depressed" kind of girl. I am a little lonely and I hate feeling that way because I love my isolation and time alone. I still think it is pathetic. I have, of course been thinking about My Ex-Husband- Ugh. I really don't know what to say about him. Part of Me wants to just Punch him and the other Part just wants me to cuddle with him. LOL. JERK.

I went to Oregon and got Drunk almost every night when my Grandparents. It was great.

Sigh. Please don't judge me, life is hard for everybody.

Back from Vacation.......

2005-09-27T18:37:00.000-07:00

It was fun, My Daughter was sick, consistently coughing...sigh. I had to take her to the Emergency room and now she is still coughing. I gave a Treatment and a Children's Cough Tablet. I hope it works. Tomorrow she has another Visit with the Clinic.

Didn't Get The Job......Going on Vacation.....

2005-09-21T21:04:00.000-07:00

Yeah, I didn't get the Job! They said they liked me though and would like me to apply later. I am not too bummed about it, I have other things in the works!

I am going on Vacation tomorrow! I will be gone until next Wednesday and this is my LAST Post until then.

Talk to you ALL LATER!

Jacquelyn

New Things to Happen....

2005-09-18T16:46:00.000-07:00

I figure if I get this New Job then that will leave me more of an Opportunity to get more serious with my AVON Business. I can then build My Downline and maybe a Solid Customer Base because then I would be on a Normal Schedule. I had also signed up for Greeting Cakes Company, I am very excited about that because I think they would be a Great Addition to My AVON Business. I would also like to do Pampered Chef but I am going to hold off for a while.

I am very Excited about the possibilities with AutoSurfing. I figure I could get all my Credit and Debt in Order, have some money in Savings and Some in Investing and be good and of course for Tithing. When following the guidelines for Rich Dad and The One Minute Millionaire.

Like I keep saying...next week is THE Week for Me. If I get this Job then I need to transfer from the other Curves I am going to now to the one where I live at. I will also be going on Vacation so I will have to talk to My Boss about that and also about My Schedule. Next week could be life changing! The Vacation in itself will be good so I can clear My Head.

UGH....Stressing....

2005-09-16T22:17:00.000-07:00

I swear if it isn't freaking one thing, than its another....

Next week is a week I am anticipating if I get that Job or not...it is also the week I go on Vacation...and I had also joined a Weight Management Class from Curves which officially starts now.

PLUS! My Parents don't want to babysit for me if I work on a Saturday. But, they can't be happy with a normal schedule instead of working a split shift. Which leaves me working 7-7 pm. I swear they are jerks and it pisses me off! I hate bending over backwards for them and then paying for their stupid Rent so I can hear them bitch. I am just at the end of my rope.

So whether or not I get the Job...or anything else...I am just screwed in all directions. I am going to take that JOB if I get it.

UGH...I hate Stressing. Then of course, there is Money. But I think I have that taken care of.

Oh and then I get Lonely and Stress some more about My Husband. It is quite pathetic.

I just HOPE Everything works out.

I feel like a New Woman!

2005-09-11T13:32:00.000-07:00

I had got my hair done yesterday and I feel so much better. It was great! I also spent alot of money too but I figure Why not?

I may get a Job Interview next week and I am also going to Oregon the week after for Vacation. Oh the change of Scenery will do ALOT of good! Since I will be moving to Oregon it will be nice to see what they have up there plus my Grandparents are up there. I plan to get a Car and a Condo. I am VERY Excited.

I am applying for a new Job in my Company and I also applied for a Job at home. So, I am just going to try out for both and see what happens.

I have been doing some things Online to make money and it seems to be working out well. I have created a Website and Blog to keep track of my experience and efforts to Make Money Online.

I have also been Working Out at Curves and been watching what I eat. So far it is working, I really don't have much to lose, it is just mostly around the gut.

Being Single is cool, but the whole Single Scene just sucks. I am not sure which is worse? Married or Single? I like getting my way and I know if I am married I cannot always get my way, I also like my solitude and I cannot get that when I am married either.

But anyway, I better Ping this.

Well, my Baby was sick...

2005-09-09T22:53:00.000-07:00

So, I stayed home to be with her today. I usually don't stay home at all unless she is sick. I really cannot afford to stay home. I am contemplating Working from Home while I make money doing the Other Stuff I do to Make Money Online.

This whole work thing just sucks, it isn't that I don't like working, because I do, it is just I work these LONG Hours. UGH. I also like to have alot of free time.

Well, I am going to Ping this. I hope I get some more comments.

Oh What a Day!

2005-09-08T21:40:00.000-07:00

I worked all day and then went to a Pampered Chef Party and I still have ALOT to do! I am in the process of applying for a new Job and I am just so TIRED always...all these Projects I am doing...SIGH.

Jacquelyn

Time for another Post....

2005-09-07T22:39:00.000-07:00

Sigh...I have no idea what I am doing really...LOL...it is about my bed time and I still have plenty of things on my mind, especially about work, the past, my work online...its like when will the worrying ever just stop?

Going on Vacation in a couple of weeks to Oregon. I think maybe the change of scenery will help me clear my head so I can FOCUS and put more things into action.

I know I haven't Updated

2005-09-05T14:06:00.000-07:00

I have been way too busy focusing on my Other Blog. Which focuses on AutoSurfing,PTRs, and Other Programs.

But alot has been going on Personally...I have been going out more and such. I still think about my ex-husband, but I guess it is natural. I am still Single and I do LOVE it, mostly.

Curves is great. Although I am not working out as hard as I should. I am MORE focused on Making Money right now and applying for different Position in the Company I work for.

My Daughter is good. She is getting big very fast. Its crazy, just two years ago I had been in Mexico and married and now it is just US living with my parents.

Since I will be moving to Oregon, I decided to hold off on getting a Car and My Parents said just place myself on their Insurance and use their vehicles.

I haven't really care about how I looked lately, all I want to do is just make some money so I don't have to worry so much anymore, but My New Blog talks about the ways I have been Supplementing My Income.

I hope I still have people that visit this Blog! I will try to Update More Often.

Rich Dad and FISH!

2005-08-13T09:48:00.000-07:00

I came across the Rich Dad Poor Dad various times. I had purchased the Book and which I just barely started reading today and listened to the first CD of the Course, which a co-worker of mine has. After I had listened to that first CD of the Rich Dad Course I was blown away by the information he had given within 20 minutes of listening to that CD. Rich Dad Poor Dad by Robert K. is the best information you could ever receive about 'Escaping the Rat Race'. Which I have been on and off trying for years.

FISH! I had read yesterday. It is a short little book with a short story on how to apply the ideas of an Exciting workplace located in a local Seattle Fish Market. It was good and I think I apply most of the ideas to my own workplace.

I noticed that the two things I had learned and are learning completely Contradict each other, but being a Single Mom and having to work full-time, I should have an Exciting Workplace till I can 'Escape the Rat Race'.

Indulgences....

2005-08-09T21:29:00.000-07:00

I have so many! Like any woman I LOVE my chocolate...but it can't be just any chocolate...it has to be either Cadbury, Hershey's or the kind I had while I had while living in Mexico...I Love my glass of milk...it is so good to drink at night before you go to bed...it makes you feel comfortable and full...I LOVE to be Pampered...if I had my way I would be EVERYDAY...I am not very high maintanence but when I get the chance I jump at it...I like to have people do my hair and put make-up on me...its nice...I like massages...I like everything and I LOVE Being a GIRL! Women have alot of advantages over men...I think that is why so many choose to one.

Work is interesting to say the least...I get to meet another Celebrity Guru...its great and I am excited.

I am doing nothing this weekend except for clean...

Carlessness

2005-08-04T23:04:00.000-07:00

I barely got my License when I turned 21. I have failed the Driving Test 3 times!!! I NEED A CAR!!! I am in Used Car Hell. I have so many stories…any advice??? I had a Car before I had a License when I was 16! My first Car was a 1982 VW Rabbit Baby Blue. I LOVED that Car but I had no License to DRIVE!

Everyone around me drives. I have to depend on people for rides and pay gas money. I HATE IT. You have NO idea how incompetent it makes me feel.

I have been looking at Cars for the longest time and nothing good still hasn’t come along. I orginally had $1,700 but I won’t get the other grand until I move the Oregon. And I need the Car NOW not later.

I am more or less venting my frustration of Used Car Hell and I am sure every option you name I will have already tried. But please, tell me. :)

This is a VERY Important Goal for Me and it will also be Life Changing since I have never driven a day in My Life.

Jacquelyn

See more progress on: Own a car

I love my baby girl...

2005-08-04T22:39:00.000-07:00

But I don’t spend enough time with her and I think I could always show her more love. I work long hours and her birthday is coming up this weekend and I just want to be the kind of mommy she wants me to be. I know she LOVES animals and being outside so I am taking her to the Zoo this weekend for her Birthday and I am also looking for getting a job with more normal hours as well.

Jacquelyn

See more progress on: be a good mom

Long Time...No Post....

2005-08-04T21:04:00.000-07:00

First, I received (did I get it right? LOL) three very sweet emails from some Blog Readers. I just want to say 'Thank you' for Reading My Blog! :) Here is My Update! I will try to Update as often as I can.

Well...it is not that I have not been Posting in My Blog...I have just been Posting in my Other Blog. If you want to see what I have been up to I would click over to My New Blog. I have been very Busy over there Updating and finding out New Information about PTRs (Paid to Reads), AutoSurfing, Free IPods and Gifts and Rewards Sites and just various ways to make money on the Net.

Well, frustrated at work...I do my best there and I was not chose for a Project and I am very PISSED. I LOVE My Job...to the extent that the hours suck because I work a split shift and see My Daughter very little during the week, I have been also looking at some Career Changes. I am considering Web Design and Real Estate/Mortgages.

I am moving to Oregon some time next year and I am SOOOOOOOOOOO Excited to leave Utah. My Parents keep telling me I should get some banking experience in before we move and I think I agree with them. So I am debating really bad about my job.

Haven't dated in forever and yet the sheer sight or idea of a guy just disgusts me completely.

Went to Wendover last weekend and Lost EVERYTHING I took with me . LOL. It was kind of fun. I still would do it again.

I JOINED CURVES!!! I LOVE IT!!! I am going to start collecting the merchandise because well, I sell AVON and they have alot of Curves Products and I haven't collected anything in a while. But, it feels so good to work out...I feel more attractive and healthier and it has really changed my eating habits as well. So many benefits to working out.

I am going to Vegas to see my dad in October. I Miss him. He is such a Genuine Person. Sometimes, I get so caught up in what I am doing that I forget to call him. :( Shame on Me.

My Daughter's 2nd Birthday is this weekend. I am so excited! I am going to take her to the Zoo and I am working on getting her a slide. I LOVE Her. She really is my baby. :)

New Obsessions....

2005-07-04T21:52:00.000-07:00

I spend ALOT of time on the Internet and so I have a few new "Obsessions" that I like to do...

I had just discovered AutoSurfing...and after reading over the information over a million times over I decided to sign up and do it...all I do is Surf Daily and I get Paid and then when I Upgrade I get More MONEY...

My other Obsession is listening to Launch Radio while Surfing the Internet...I had just recently Upgraded so now I am right now Customizing my own Station that will play the Music I want to Listen too..it really bring backs Memories too sigh...

I swear my whole day is spent on the Internet...and I don't do silly stuff either like into stupid Chatrooms...I Love visiting Forums and of course various Websites...

Make no mistake I do go outdoors like Clubbing in such but I always feel more secure being at home with my daughter in my room...I know it is an isolated existence but I like it.

Since I am just "floating" right now nothing new is really going on...did nothing for the 4th and really had no plans too...Did get invited Camping and to go to the Cherry Hill again but I just wanted to enjoy my 3 day weekend before going back to work...

I did realize since I worked long ass hours (7-7 pm) that I need to spend more time with my daughter, even if it is just a little bit...when I get home I just have enough time to give her a bath and put her to bed.

I guess I just spend alot of time thinking...

I guess I also just spend alot of time on the Internet as well...OH WELL!

Anyway...I had made some New Goals for July...I hope I snap out of this state here soon...

Jacquelyn

Feeling Non-Motivated

2005-06-16T21:49:00.000-07:00

Sigh. This is Depressing. Ever feel like you are floating? That is how I feel. Like, I am just going through the motions of the day, every day.

I have No Motivation for My Business or My Life. I am guess just a little confused as to how My Life turned out so far and I keep remembering my Past and wonder why things are the things they are?

I have a Basement apartment and I mostly hide in here I guess you could say.

I have always wanted to be something BIG and GREAT...and here I am...

I am also confused about God and this horrible World we live in.

I am Tired all the time, I eat Junk Food non-stop and pretty soon I will be round all around.

I think Men are Repulsive...

I don't know how to snap out of it. It is really depressing because I am 23 years old and a Single Mom and I always thought I would have a better life than this...

I know what My 'Whys' are to change my life and I just cannot function correctly. I do pretty good at work but that is it. Maybe things happen at a slower pace for Me? I don't know.

Improvement and Preparation

2005-06-09T22:15:00.000-07:00

My Next Step into My New Lifestyle is Preparation and Improvement.

Ok for those who read my Blog, thank you.

I decided to take a BIG Step and let God back into My Life and I hope he Forgives me for My Sins...I plan to start studying the Bible 30 minutes every night and possibly attend the Church I should be attending with the help of God through Prayer.

My next step for Improvement is Diet and Exercise.

The other kind of Preparation I hope to take be able to take place is ways of Protecting My Daughter and Myself.

What I mean by that is taking a CPR class, maybe learn Self-Defense, maybe attend some Safety Classes etc...anything along those lines...

This may sound crazy to some of you but we always need to Prepare and Improve.

I am pretty much done Organizing and Cleaning My Room.

*What I am going to do at this moment also is getting on My Business. I am just freaking and I need to just take a Deep breath and just DO IT!

I would also align myself at work for a Promotion...meaning relearn Spanish; use My Creative Thinking Skills to bring more money into the Company etc...be PROACTIVE.

As far as My Personal Life goes I would like to hopefully at least go out every other week with some Friends and I have no interest right now in Relationships.

Climbing the Ladder....

2005-06-04T13:20:00.000-07:00

To Success...!

Goals:

1) Car-I am up to $600 and I am going to save even more money for a BETTER Car. Around $1200.

2) Organization...I am in the process of Organizing My Life...and it is a 'Process'

3) Working on My AVON and AmeriPlan Businesses:

Goals for AVON:

1) Customer Base of 20-40 People
2) Down of 10 People to achieve Unit Leader Status
3) Mantain Sales of $500+ a Campaign

Goals for AmeriPlan: Switched to Advanced Commissions

1) Become Regional Sales Director-which is 4 Broker and 6 Members

OK, Whats New with Me?

2005-05-28T12:41:00.000-07:00

*Well I am Certified Beauty Advisor for AVON!

*I am going to be getting My Car at an Auction Next Saturday! Woohoo!

*Tuesday I am going to be getting My AmeriPlan Business back on Track and be a RSD by the end of June!

*MY Grandparents are coming to meet their Great-Grandchild

Happy Birthday to Me!

2005-05-12T20:49:00.000-07:00

Today was such a Wonderful Day!

Well today was My Birthday and it was Great!!!

First I turned 23 and a PAID day off from work.

I got a Cake and Balloons, Manicure, Pedicure and Eyebrow Wax.

My friend took me for Coffee and Cake at Marie Calendars.

Plus I got $30 from Grandparents and $50 from my Family. For a Total of $80.

MY Grandmother who also lives in a completely different state than I do sent me an AVON Order for $24.

I also got another AVON Order from one of my Stepdad's employee.

I also got My Benny Cards for My FSA Account!

I am an Internet freak and I had recieved e-mails from people telling me Happy Birthday and a Thread dedicated to My Special Day!

Today I really felt Special and felt good. It was one of the BEST Birthdays I have ever had!

Here is the Plan

2005-05-08T04:14:00.000-07:00

Well, I am such a bad daughter :(. I haven't written or talked to my Daddy in such a long time. I just found out from my Grandmother in Texas that my Dad has earned his GED. I am so proud of him. He told her he thinks that I am mad at him and I am not, I have just been overly busy.

So what I need to do is work on getting my Car a little bit faster so I can save a Trip to Vegas to go and see my Dad. I am also going to be writing my dad a letter and send it to him next week.

So AVON is doing really good. I will be a Certified Beauty Advisor here shortly and I made over $800 in Sales. I will also have about 2-3 Recruits here soon.

I am also going to have to put more effort into my AmeriPlan Business. I was thinking I may go for Advanced Commissions so I can get paid more quicker. I don't know I am still seeing what I need to do. My Goal is to make enough to work from home, I had been thinking about $2,000 a month and then build my Sales Organization with qualified Prospects using the techniques that Dani Johnson has and then I should be able to work from home.

It is really all about the Numbers and all I need to do is the Math.I should really try to attend the National Convention as well as Dani Johnson's Training Seminar as well.

Between the two businesses I should be able to reach Financial Independence within 18 months.

I am getting closer to getting my Car. Paying myself first was the best thing I could have ever done. I didn't even touch the money because I did Direct Deposit.

My REAL Concern is getting Organized. I really need to go through my Clothes and stuff so I can have more space and I also need more Office Organization and a Play Area for my Daughter.

I decided....

2005-05-01T22:30:00.000-07:00

That the two Businesses I am with are just fine. I am actually going to start studying and do stuff to help my other business. My Goal is to become RSD still! I know I should have done it by now but I just let everything get in the way. Like they say "Consistency" is the key.

I cannot wait till I go to the auction and get a Car. I am Excited and NERVOUS at the same time. I will practice in my city and then take my Car to work and everywhere else.

Well I got my things ready for the week. I am about to get some more orders from my AVON Business. It is EXCITING! It really isn't about the sales for me yet, it is just the matter of having people interested;using the products myself and becoming Certified as a Beauty Advisor and do Leadership. I will have two people in my downline.

Well, I am hoping I have enough money to advertise my AmeriPlan business this Friday. I think I will based on my Sales from AVON.

I am still looking into Organizing and Saving Money.

What do I LOVE to do?

2005-04-29T22:35:00.000-07:00

You know, the saying goes "Do What You Love and then the Money will Follow." which gets me thinking...

What do I LOVE to do? I know I Love the Internet; Business Opportunities; Financial Independence...but, I know I must be more specific then that...

This is VERY Hard for Me. I am trying to reach inside myself and grab my Worth so I can reach my highest Potential and Be Successful.

What makes this even more difficult is I am trying to do this by Myself.

I just cannot figure out what Motivates Me.

I am doing Internet Searches all over for the best Business Opportunity.

Anyway, tomorrow I have a Beauty Advisor Class tomorrow for AVON. I will be getting Certified next month and I am VERY Excited!

Clearing the Plate

2005-04-28T19:57:00.000-07:00

Well time for a few decisions that need to be made and they are difficult ones!

The first decision I had made was to 'take a break' from doing Online Classes. The reason is because I have no DESIRE to do them. I try, but I just don't because I don't feel like it. I still plan to get my BA in Marketing but it will have to wait till I have more Time, Desire and Drive to do it.

The second decision, I am still unclear of. I am thinking of quitting my AmeriPlan Business. The Business is fine; the Discount Health Care Plan is fine. The reason? I am not too big on the Compensation plan. I am now actively looking for a new MLM Business with either a higher Compensation Plan or a whole new type of Business together. Why? I would just like a BIGGER piece of the pie. But, like I said I am still trying to make that decision.

Right now I am Researching ALL my Options-MLM, Direct Sales, Franchises, Homebased, etc...it is not easy looking for the right homebased business. I am sick of playing this card...I am doing really well with AVON and I do enjoy doing it but I need more than that.

I will also be Organizing and Managing My Time more efficiently, especially since I will have a Car.

I need to put my Life in Order so I can Grow, Expand and become a Highly Effective and Successful Person.

Re-evaluation of my Life

2005-04-24T12:06:00.000-07:00

Well time for another re-evaluation.

Re-evaluation is good to determine what I need to do next and what I have been doing so far...

I have not been doing very good with my Online College Classes. I am considering 'quitting' till I have more time and desire to do College. I have four more weeks in this term and so I have to play catch up and decide if this is something I really want to continue to do. It is either all or nothing.

I have started AVON and it is really taking off, my first Campaign was $12 and my second was over $400. I like AVON and I enjoy their products and I am glad I found it again. I have decided I need to spend more time working on my AmeriPlan Business. I am going to get my Finances in order so I can spend more time with my Businesses and Schooling. I am still working towards getting a Car. But I have already got that part figured out.

I decided I want to begin working towards working from home. This is important. I LOVE My Job but I really do not have enough time on my hands...and I only spend about 1-2 hours a night with my daughter before she has to go to bed.

I am also looking into better organization and time management. I am working on both.

IN the near future I would like to get back into Affiliate/Internet Marketing but for the time being I am happy with what I am doing.

Here comes the big sigh...Like any normal person, I am feeling lonely :( and I don't like dating and I have my daughter to think about...but, what to do to get over the loneliness? I think I am one of those people who are meant to spend their lives alone...just like my father. Every person I meet is just disappointing. I know that may sound shallow but in my eyes, I see the truth. Why convince myself that they could be the right person?

So to cure my loneliness I throw myself into my work and business plus I spend alot of time online.

Now looking back I cannot believe how much of my life has changed and what transitions I have went through. High School Student to Married to Pregnant in Mexico to returning to going to Job Corps to being a Temp to finally finding a Permanent Job as a Single Mom. My head is spinning just to think about it.

I have work tomorrow and have to get up at 6 am and I am just not tired or I just don't care at the moment?

Oh this whole AVON/AmeriPlan thing has really sparked interest in my family. My brother is thinking of signing up as a Rep and so is my mom to help me make Unit Leader. They saw how much sales I had made and now my brother is interested in it. It is really awesome.

My Goals with AVON are to be Senior Executive Unit Leader and Certified Beauty Advisor Trainer (ask your AVON Rep).

My Goals with AmeriPlan are to become National Sales Director and enroll over 10,000 Members.

I would really like to lose a few pounds. I am doing good these past couple of days with the caffeine and food but I also plan to schedule in some time for that as well.

Well have to try to sleep!

Jacquelyn

Blocking Wealth?

2005-04-18T20:48:00.000-07:00

I have been doing my research tonight as usual...reading about the Successful people in the World...and I think to myself, do I block wealth? Do I have the 9-5 work mentality and am I only capable of working paycheck to paycheck?

No, I don't think so! Then, why do I feel I have blocked my capacity to obtain wealth? Do I want wealth? Of Course!

I have a couple of side businesses- I sell AVON and AmeriPlan. I started selling AVON because I was a little frustrated because I haven't made a sell with it yet. Yet, with AVON I have already made quite a few. But AVON is AVON.

Then I also realized it would take alot of numbers to make alot of money with both these businesses. I also realized that I do not have the right mind set and I need to change my way of thinking.

Anyway, just some thoughts I will keep pondering.

Goals

2005-04-17T16:50:00.000-07:00

Goals:
1) Save Money for a Car- Right now I have $319.00 saved for a Car. I am still working towards it.

2) Work 10 hours on my Business- I am now also selling AVON and I am doing pretty good actually! I am looking towards becoming a Unit Leader & Certified Beauty Advisor for AVON. Plus, I would like to become Regional Sales Director for AmeriPlan. I know it is doable but I am still wanting to do more training. Providing Products and Services AKA "Selling" is not very easy but I will become very good! I know it.

3) My next goal is to be working full time from home by next year and have enough for a downpayment on a house. Is it doable? I think so!

Businesses that I had tried....

2005-04-10T13:42:00.000-07:00

Right now I Am doing AVON and AmeriPlan.

2004-2005
Arbonne
Affiliate Marketing
AmeriPlan
AVON
Credit Solutions/Mortgage Minder Mail Order Business (Returning-the start-up is too high)

BACK IN 2000:
Don Lapre (Marketing Chat Lines)
Big Planet
AVON
Bought Work from Home Lists (It was $5.00 and a decent list but now this information is more attainable)
Ideal Craft (Assembling Spiders-VERY HARD)
Bought Auction and Foreclosure Lists (Not a good idea!)

Some Updates

2005-04-02T20:46:00.000-08:00

Yes, I know it has been a while. I am going to stay on top of it though!

Well, lets see, I spend most of my time at work so I have been studying good with my Online classes. I try to take things a week by week basis since everything is do at tbe end of the week.

I SPLURGED my last paycheck and did not save a penny towards my Car. I am not regretful but it wasn't a good thing to do either.

What I bought was some things that can help me with my Business and I am also trying out some other things.

*I decided to become a Rep for AVON. I figure it is the easiest Product to sell. So I am going to do this supplementing my Ameriplan and Job.

*I also purchased from this other program which I have been curious about for over 2 years. I will eventually try it out but since it is a Mail Order Product it will cost more to profit from.

*Purchased another Subliminal/Paraliminal CD titled 'Sales Leap'
I love using them.

Goals:

-Save up $700 for a Car to purchase at a Car Auction
-Put ad in Paper for 13 weeks advertising Discount Health Care ($60)
-Gain 7 Customers for AVON in Campaign 8 with a total Sales of $150.00

Re-Evaluation of Goals & Resolutions

2005-03-27T00:00:00.000-08:00

I decided I needed to concentrate on 3 Goals at a time. Then it will be easier to focus on my priorities and what needs to be done for the year.

Goals/Resolutions I want to concentrate on:
1) Saving $500+ for a Car
Car Saving Total: $130.00

2) Work 10 hours a week on Homebased Business
Goals are to make $500 a month and become RSD (4 Brokers & 6 Members)

3) Save Money-at least $5,000 by the end of the year for a down payment on a house.
This goal is on hold till I can get my Car.

Ok here are my goals.

Jacquelyn

A good Couple of Days

2005-03-18T23:32:00.000-08:00

I am happy! Finally something good happening to Me.

First on Thursday my mother used my Discount Health Care from my business and she saved 50% on her Prescription and instead of being a Skeptic she is now a Supporter. :)

Then I just keep getting all these people wanting more information about my Business and I call them during my breaks at work and give them information about the Discount Health Care and the Business. I tell my friends and family I am not prepared yet and they remind me it is "just practice" so I talk to them and let them know about the plan. I haven't been advertising at all either!

Now at work, we had a Health Fair and I got all kinds of goodies and then I just found out I am going to meet the Real Estate Guru in April and I am SOOOOOOOO Excited! I am going to be sure to get my Photo Op with him!

Motivational Speaker

2005-03-14T22:34:00.002-08:00

This may sound INSANE to some of you but I have been thinking (in the far future) of becoming a Motivational Speaker. Why? Because I just LOVE their Positive Attitude and how people look and admire them and their skill of making you feel like you could achieve anything in the World!

I remember in High School, we had an Assembly and this guy, I guess he went from School to School and he was very Inspirational Motivational Speaker. I LOVE his story and people always want to hear yours so that they know that they can go from rock bottom to anywhere they want to be.

Also when I think of Motivational Speakers-I think of Anthony Robbins and he just inspires me from his Infomercials. Sometimes late at night I look for his Infomericals. LOL. I plan to buy his Get the Edge sometime here soon.

Anyway, motivate yourself! I believe in YOU and I know you can do it! Fufill Your Dreams (that are Legal and Moral) and don't listen to anyone else!

Affiliate Marketing

2005-03-13T22:13:00.000-08:00

Before getting into the Home Business I am in now, I was learning/doing Affiliate Marketing. Now, with any kind of of Internet Marketing there is A LOT to Learn! But as I am sitting here, I wonder when I should jump back into the game again? I LOVE My MLM Business and I am thinking at a later time when I will be working at home to do this again. I Love Residual and Multiple Streams of Income and I Love Learning about Web Design. I have been doing it for over ten years!

I would Love to have a website where people can go and chit chat and learn more information and of course enjoy the products. I have always thought of doing kind of a Self-Help Review website. I listen to Subliminal CDs, I read books and I love Anthony Robbins.

But it is a great thought and I would love to do it at a later date.

Movies........Salsa Dancing

2005-03-12T20:28:00.000-08:00

I LOVE watching Movies. They take you away from your problems and just everyday life. I think that is why the Movie Industry is probably really big. But, not just for those reasons but because sometimes it makes you think! Which is good, it can change your perspective on things. We all need a little wake up call sometimes, we all need to sit down and decide what is important to us and are we really doing what we REALLY want to do? Sometimes in Life we just need a little simplicity, we need to just sit down and stare out the window, go outside and have a picnic. Something, without having to Worry about EVERYTHING in our everyday Life.

At my Job, I call people to let them know they have services available with a certain product and when I call they are just Rush, Rush, Rush! They don't have time to sit down and talk for a couple of minutes...also, if you look at it people need to look outside in order to see what really NEED on the inside. Then, not only does it MAKE YOU HAPPY but those also in your Circle are more happy as well. I am a Strong Believer in the Butterfly Effect. Can you IMAGINE if everyone was Positive? Instead people get stuck in Routines, quit caring and are negative. Why do you think most people want to make money? Because they want TIME, they want to be able to do the things they LOVE with the PEOPLE that they LOVE. But who says you need money to do that? No one! You just have to PLAN to do those things.

Anyway, I had ALWAYS wanted to take Salsa Dancing. I think since I first saw the original "Dirty Dancing" when I was about 8 years old? Now I am 22 and I still have not taken them. Dancing I think would be SO FUN if you knew how to do it and Salsa for me is sensual kind of dance that just makes you feel more alive because of all the moving you are doing. I AM going to take Salsa Dancing one of these days.

MLM

2005-03-11T23:26:00.000-08:00

I Love MLM. I Love Sales. Am I good at either one? No. LOL. The REAL question is...Do I want to be Good? Yes. Why? Because MLM is not like any other Business out there. Originally, I did not understand nor was I interested in MLM until I found the Business that I was interested in. Which was Discount Health Care for Uninsured and Uninsured people. To me, I thought well, Perfect! I have a Business people NEED. I have a Plan that people NEED.

My Goal is to conquer the Sales/MLM World. Why would I want to do that? Because it is a FUN Industry. I chose Sales/MLM because I am not a good Communicator and I love owning my own Business and when you own a Business, what do you usually have to do? SALE! When you sale you ALWAYS have to communicate. So basically this will be knocking alot of birds with one stone. LOL.

Had to Post again....

2005-03-11T23:13:00.000-08:00

I forgot to mention that I had almost knocked out THREE, I REPEAT 3 New Years Resolutions. Yes. If you look back on 2005 Resolutions Post you will see that I have 2 and a half completed.

I had found a Permanent Job, which was #1 on my list. I have started a Savings Account to SAVE Money and that is #3, I am getting close to #2 which is buying a Car. I am ACCOMPLISHING and that is enough for me this moment.

Although I do have PLENTY OF ideas for MORE Income boosters since that is where my focus is to be Financially Independent.

You will be hearing MORE!

Jacquelyn

My First Goal

2005-03-11T22:49:00.000-08:00

Become a Driver. AS in get a Car. I have waited 8 years to Drive. I bought my first Car-a 1982 VW Rabbit (Gosh it was so cute baby blue) when I was 16 for $300 and I did NOT have a Drivers License and then my (ex)Husband ended up driving my Car when I was married at 18.

Now, I got My Drivers License at 21 while attending Job Corps and NOW 22, I am trying to save up for a Car. Isn't that funny how Life works?

I am a little afraid of the road. I do not have really any experience at all. So, the first couple of months I do NOT dare drive with my Daughter.

I decided I am going to attend a Car Auction and purchase my next vehicle.

WHY My First Goal NOW?

1) IT will HELP ME Tremendously with my MLM Business and normal stuff in general

2) It is one of my New Years Resolution! My Second one.

3) I think it is necessary in Life to get around and run errands

Unmotivated

2005-03-08T22:16:00.000-08:00

I don't know why but I just feel so unmotivated. Why do I feel this way? How can I change? I am so sick of living the way I do yet I just feel so Unmotivated! What should I do?

Savings

2005-03-06T08:51:00.000-08:00

Well, I have finally started saving for a Car. A New Years resolution of mine. You can view more about my savings/budgeting at Jackie's Saving Journal. I need to focus on ALL My New Years Resolution and plan my time better. No MORE Excuses.

Well my Job is going well. All My bosses are nice and I have GREAT benefits. I also met and talked to alot of people at work and I am planning a Potluck for my team. I am going to try to do the best job I possibly can and learn Spanish again so I can get promoted.

My Daughter is walking and practically talking. I am so proud but she is showing signs that she is spoiled. Which I am trying to break her of that. She is a smart girl and being a Single Mom I could see how it would be easy for her to take advantage of Me.

Monday I am going to begin Fresh. I am working towards the $500 bonus my MLM business is having to become RSD. I am hoping that will motivate me to try to achieve Success with my business.

Well I am done with my two College Classes and I registered for two more. I am now going to be taking Principles of Marketing and English Composition. I also discovered my Grant only covers me until June so I will have to reapply again. I also know that my Job offers Tuition Reimbursement so I am going to make sure I qualify for that. Which I believe I do.

I am really getting motivated on this non-spending kick. But I realize I will have to spend money so I am going to try to supplement my income in other places.

My Brother finally decided to go to Job Corps, I believe he leaves at the end of the month. I know it will do him some good to go.

Diet .......Budget

2005-02-27T23:40:00.000-08:00

I am TIRED of feeling the way I feel! I am going to start dieting by controlling my eating habits and then eventually breaking down and doing some exercise.

AS it was a New Years Resolution, I need to go through with it! We are at the end of February already.

Diet is NOT a Bad Word. Diet means controlling your eating habits and it doesn't matter if you are fat or thin everyone needs to DIET by eating healthy.

I, myself had purchased some generic weight loss shakes and will be using them as a meal replacement for lunch time at work.

I am also working on another one of my New Years Resolution Goals by Saving Money so I can have a Car. I am also looking into part-time employment.

I had also FOUND A PERMANENT JOB! Which was one of my New Years Resolutions for 2005.

So I am slowly getting off of my feet to achieve my new goals. :)

Hello

2005-02-20T23:42:00.000-08:00

I know, I am usually more in tune with posting every day but lately I have been just plain ole tired...from working and doing this and that etc...

Right now in my thoughts of thoughts I am deciding a new approach to my life. Am I going through depression? Is that why I am no longer motivated?

I had finally got a permanent new Job with a company's main source of business is Marketing...PERFECT! I like My Job, it has benefits and pay is ok for a Single Mom.

Before that I had a bad temp Job with no future.

Now My Main Focus, most of the time is My Daughter and MY Business. I have not had any luck in sales and I have had no experience in Sales which makes it a little diffcult for me to achieve Success in My Business. But My World is surrounded by the Sales Industry if you look at my Major in College which is Marketing; My New Job is all about Marketing a certain product that you see in an late night infomercial (I am doing Customer Service aspect because of lack of Sales Experience).

But now...I am dragging and I feel helpless...and I am letting just life bring me down...it is a horrible feeling! I am usually on the up and up! Sigh. I don't know and I hope things change in the next couple of days.

I Love My Job!

2005-02-15T22:36:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was my first day! I love it! I have Benefits and I am Permanent! But I am still working towards my goal of Financial Indepedence!

Jacquelyn

2005 Resolutions

2005-02-06T14:15:00.000-08:00

This is a New Year and I would like to make some drastic changes in my life. I had not started and it is already February! So, like they say write it down and your are mostly likely to do it whatever it is you want to do! The TIME IS NOW!

2005 New Year Resolutions:

1) Find a Permanent Job

2) Save Money to Buy a Car

3) Save Money

4) Exercise 5 Times a Week

5) Eat more Fruits & Veggies and other Healthful Foods

6) *Work on Health Care Business at least 10 Hours a Week

7) Start Reading again

8) Organization

9) Began Cooking with New Recipes

10) Network more with People in My Area

11) BE MORE POSITIVE

12) Take Better Care of Myself & My Daughter

13) Study more for Online Classes

I will be working on these Goals Daily and will note My Progress via Blog.

The Bible

2005-02-04T22:33:00.000-08:00

The more horrible things about this World that I hear, the more I want to protect My Daughter and Myself for The End.

It depresses Me when I hear the horrible things that happen. I decided I am going to start reading the Bible and then probably, eventually go to Church. I am not very good Spiritually right now but as one of my Challenges, I am working on it. The reason I chose to is because I know God exists and maybe he feels I do not acknowledge him but I am very confused.

All signs in Revelation point to the World Coming to an End. I have thought of doing a Blog based on my thoughts of the Bible but decided not to because they are between me and God and the World already exposes Religion enough. If you think of the recent movies, products and books for sale, I don't think it was His Intention for Us to Market Products based on the Nature of God.

I believe The Bible is the only REAL Truth that speaks of God. I have no faith in Religion, and yes I did say I would go to Church but you never know which would hold the true knowledge of God plus I also said I am working on my Spiritual issues.

I am very excited for Armageddon. It will be the end of all Evil in the World. I had first had some issues of that happening but I do not want to be "attached" to this wicked world.

FINALLY!

2005-02-04T21:52:00.000-08:00

Finally I have a Permanent Job! I have waited for over three months and I finally think I found one! The Company finally called me back and told Me they have an Opening for Me. I am so excited. The Temp Job I am doing I really feel like is dragging me down! I have a FUNNY Story to share bearing this news.

Well here is what happened today, I was at work as usual and one of the Team Leads walked up to me and told me I had a Job Interview with their Company! Boy, was I EXCITED and caught off guard. Well, time came and I was at the Interview and they had started interviewing me and then the first question that they had asked me was "So, what is your experience with Call Center work?" and I had straight up told them that this abc company was the first place I had done Call Center work before. Then the interview stopped. Because in order to work for abc company you need to have at least one year call center experience. I wasn't supposed to be a Temp for this position but the Agency let me work for abc company anyway! So the agency knew but the company didn't. So they told me in a year I could reapply and have my experience for the position. I shook their hands and thanked them then left the room and went back to work. Funny story!

My First thought was how funny one moment you have an Job Opportunity in your hands and then the next moment it disappears! So, I was a little upset but glad it was over with and then I had some actual GOOD NEWS!

The Company I had went for a Job Interview (twice by the way) had finally called me TWICE and told me they had a possible Job for Me! I am so happy!

Mommy Advice

2005-02-01T19:48:00.000-08:00

I swear it was a miracle. My babysitter read my mind. I had been having problems getting my daughter to bed the approproiate time. I had been overworked and tired and the sitter just asked me if I was having problems getting her to bed at night. I was thinking my mother had something to do with it and the babysitter continually said no.

Anyway, I did everything she said. Play with her and then plan a quiet hour and then lay her down to sleep in her Crib with no bottle. Well, the first three options worked except not giving her the bottle. I know, I know. Shame on Me. This is the first time I put her in her Crib and it worked! But I think it worked because when she was a baby my mom put her in the crib next to her and she also sleeps in the crib at the babysitters.

Being a Single Mom is hard. I am too tired to visit with her after work and I just need to discipline her more and spend more time with her. Today I did really well with my baby girl.

Business Opportunities

2005-01-31T22:32:00.000-08:00

Business Opportunities now a days are just turning into that Business Opportunities with no information behind them and it is making people rich by taking advantage of people like us who want to be break out of the 9-5-rat-race-no-recognition b.s.

I have been a victim to it and I am sure many of you have. I am also admittingly a former Business Opportunity Junkie too so I have seen the crap they put out there.

My question is, how can someone take advantage of someone else? Shouldn't you feel GUILTY? Right now I am currently working with a Discount Health Care Company called Ameriplan. I like it and I haven't heard anything bad about it. I help those who cannot get Health Insurance which is the majority in the USA. Over 45 million to be exact. My point is I wouldn't have joined if the product were bad.

I am out to sell a GOOD SERVICE not a Business Opportunity to potential clients and/or customers.

Internet Gurus & Celebrities

2005-01-30T23:58:00.000-08:00

On the Internet is so a little bit easier to become a Famous Guru with the right kind of press release and Info Product. With high search engine traffic and the proper copyrighting you can become an Internet Celebrity! Amazing isn't?

I bring this up because I see it alot on the Web. The Cyberworld is a whole other place and with Internet Talk Radio and Video Conferencing via the Web it makes it easier to Network and to communicate quicker.

We have Famous Gurus for Getting more Traffic, we have Internet Models such as Cindy Margolis then we have famous people within Communities like WAHM (Work at Home Moms) who also have their own appeal.

The Internet has served a HUGE purpose for me. When I was 16 I obtained photographers for photo shoots. I have found my Life Coach on the Internet. My Home Business. It is endless to how the Internet has helped me.

I love Networking, especially on the Web.

Chasing Childhood Dreams

2005-01-30T01:32:00.000-08:00

When are we too old to be chasing Childhood Dreams? Some people still persue Childhood Dreams in there 80s! Am I too old to be chasing my Childhood Dreams?

The reason why I ask is because I am a 22 year old Single Mom persuing a Home Business to be able to Work at Home and be with My Daughter. But, for Me, is that all there is? I mean yes it is a Wonderful thing but I also thought I would be a lot Fufilling Life and instead I went backwards in My Life and I am trying to move Myself forward again.

When I was 16 I wanted to Model, Act and Sing. Yes, I know it is 'typical' but who says I cannot still do those things? Is there a Law Book out there that I do not know about Persuing Childhood Dreams? I could work on my figure a little bit and maybe go and speak to agencies or audition for movies/TV on my own. I don't know.

I had been thinking about this since I noticed that a 'Mom' on the Web had began persuing her Dream of Recording and she runs her own Affiliate Website of where she makes Profit to be able to stay at home. Then, I also noticed my Upline who is now in the 100k is building a Recording Studio in her Home.

I believe we not only make money to not only be able to stay at Home with our beloved Children but also to make our Dreams come true!

I would really love to hear your feedback on the Subject.

Thank you

Jacquelyn

Job Search.....again!

2005-01-29T21:28:00.000-08:00

I am not sure if I am going to get the Job. I called and thanked the Employer for the interview. I still may have another week. I am sure if I am given the chance I can do really well in sales. My problem is I have a hard time expressing myself which makes me look like a fool especially during Job Interviews. I was quirky during the first interview, then I was even more Quirky during the second! Anyway I have to get my Resume out there some more and just keep pressing till I can get a permanent Job making a sufficient amount of money being a Single Parent.

I am still working diligently on my Home Business. I really enjoy it and I have learned alot. If you would like to learn more about how I am doing with my Home Business then you can read about it at my Blog http://healthcarebiz.blogspot.com/ . I have been focus too much on worrying and training and realize I need to take MORE Action with my Home Business especially if I plan on working from Home in a couple of years.

Right now I feel like I am at a state of confusion or I am in some kind of rut and I don't know why. I look around and I see all these people Succeeding and I Work on my Business as much as I can and I am just not doing as well. I have PLENTY of Ambition and Determination. "Giving Up" isn't even in my vocabulary. What is the issue then?
Maybe do I not have enough patience?

Shame on ME! I haven't been doing very well with my Online Classes. I know, I know I decided I am going to start taking my homework to Work. I work in a Call Center and when there is dead time I can read and I can also do it on my Breaks and Lunch. I am taking "Introduction to Business" and "Music Appreciation" I don't know if you can believe this but I think my Music Appreciation Class is harder!

I have learned and I know not to be so

Open

in my Blog. I cannot help it. In the beginning I was more open but I know I can just stick to an general issue. I am trying to be an Intelligent Person that I am and not make myself look like a Fool ;) . But, for all those who do read my Blog(s). Thanks! Leave me a comment and I will check out yours!

It amazes me how wonderful these moms do on the web with their Home Businesses. I know it doesn't take overnight but some just follow all the steps and make it happen! I cannot wait till I can show the same Results.

Second Interview...

2005-01-24T22:48:00.000-08:00

I had a second interview with the company and they told me I would find out in a week. Sigh, I have the Spirit to do Sales if given the chance. The Job is $11/HR and I need to let them know why they should not return the Product. I am really interested and since I am Marketing and I work in an MLM Company I know it would be Perfect for what I am doing now.

Well still working as a Temp. If I began working Permanently then I will start Training February 14th.

I am so happy though! My Mother and Brother surprised me by Organizing my room, it is such a relief now I just need to get some shelves.

I am so tired right now it is hard for me continue with my News. So I am going to sleep!

Jacquelyn

Life Coach......Job Interview........Temp Work

2005-01-20T21:12:00.000-08:00

I know, I know, I am tardy to all those that have been following along...well I have TONS of news..

I HIRED A LIFE COACH. Yes, she is smart, successful and she gives great advice. Everything went so fast though! I mean, first I e-mailed her questions and then we did the initial free session and NOW she is MY LIFE COACH. A Life Coach is someone who pretty much helps you get into the right direction in life. There are plenty of more detailed ways of describing what a Life Coach does for you but they are great if you are in a RUT and REALLY want to CHANGE Your LIFE for the BETTER. Anyway, our schedule is talking every Wednesday and then I "check in" with follow-ups and how I am progressing.

Job Interview- Yes, I had a Great Job Interview to be a Sales Person. Yay! I JUST LOVE SALES! This will be my first if I am hired. I have only worked in Customer Service and now I found something to where I will not only be permanent but I will be making .50 more. Well, he said I would know within a week if I am able to come back for a second interview and if I am hired training starts February 14th. Right now as a Temp I make $10.50 so a little pay raise will be great! Speaking of being a Temp...

We were notified today that they will extend our stay as associates for the company in FSA accounts. Cool too, it could give me a couple of months to find a Job if I am not hired.

Well, my business has slowed down a bit...I have not been able to JUMP on it like I had planned. BUT I WILL.

Also I haven't quit eating. I will go to the grocery store and by $20 in junk food. What is the matter with me? I can feel the fat growing on my chin, thighs and stomach. The new year is supposed to be a NEW Me. I am just tired and worn down. Why am I doing this to myself?

Well I did it!

2005-01-17T23:29:00.000-08:00

Did what you ask? I hired a Life Coach, if you would like to learn more about her, her Blog is posted on the right side appropriately titled "Real Speaks."

After mentioning in my post the last time, I actually thought about it and then I remembered that I had been networking with one recently and I e-mailed her and asked her some questions and I decided, she could help me get my life on track. She is after all a Life Coach plus I really feel she can give me the support I need. So, we are setting up a date to schedule an Initial Consultation. This may sound silly but I am actually nervous. We will be interacting once a week about issues I need help resolving and figuring out. She is a really Smart and Successful Work at Home Mom and I would really love her guidance.

I had also quit my Coaching for Internet website SingleMomConnection.com. I just do not have time to understand and fill my head with the information on getting Traffic. I do love the ladies who had helped me but I know I will be back later. This is something I need to digest on my own with articles and such and then when I began to understand what I am learning return to the Internet Marketing website.

My Online Classes so far are ok. I am doing good in my Business class but bad in my Music class. I know, I know, I need to get on the ball and I am working towards it.

My Sponsor for AMP is going to help me Organize and straighten out things in my basement apartment.

It is really sad that I have no support from my family, not even with College! And you wonder why I always seek out Positive Influences?

I will probably be getting assistance with Child Care. It is impossible to save money, pay rent & child care and be able to afford a Car and move out.

I also applied to the company I have been Temping for since October and I recieved an e-mail confirmation that I am just NOT what they are looking for. Well you know what! They are not what I am looking for either! So, I am going to start actively looking for work while I am still Temping till I can get AMP off the ground.

I had applied for two jobs via web. I am hoping to hear from them some time this week.

Jacquelyn

2005

2005-01-16T11:55:00.000-08:00

Well, I have not been doing well. By that I mean I have been trying to poison my body with Junk Food. I am supposed to be doing BETTER for the new year! Plus, I haven't exercised at all. So I can feel myself gaining all this weight and feel like I have no energy, tired and just gross. I don't even do my hair anymore.

The only thing I concentrate on is by AmeriPlan Business, Online College and taking care of my daughter.

I have been thinking seriously about the World Events and such and how it seems close to the world coming to end. All the events play in Relevation in The Bible. Which makes me think "why should I make myself better?" I am still putting alot of work into AmeriPlan but I just feel disgusted with myself. I am maybe lost and confused.

I never realized how impossible it is to get a Bible. I think I will buy one Online since I buy everything Online. To feel Protected and Prepared. Also I don't consider any religion a good religion. AND that is my HONEST Opinon!

I thought I would get my room organized and I haven't. Maybe I need a Life Coach! I will do a search on that too. I already know a Life Coach, someone I network with, I e-mailed her with some questions.

I love the fact that they have a Coach/Mentor for everything nowadays. I just hate men right now too. I don't want to be with anyone, very much less date. I could have had a date with this DJ from the radio station that my mom insanely listens to and well I never e-mailed him back. I am thinking "So, I am supposed to date this guy because he is a DJ?" and my mom says look at how much Networking you could do.I don't depend on people to give me things and I like it that way, especially MEN.

Well Online Schooling is doing OK. I am finding it impossible to get my daughter to cooperate with me so I can have more time to get work done.

I am really considering hiring a Life Coach.

Well I asked my sponsor to help me out in my apartment so I can get more organized. She said she would.

More Later

Jacquelyn

Life Events and Changes

2004-12-30T23:45:00.000-08:00

HOLIDAYS: I know everyone loves the Holidays but honestly after everything (being a Jehovah Witness and changing my views about things, I really don't care for them. I still celebrated but I just will be happy when the season goes away.

PERSONAL: The distaster around Asia is very depressing, everytime when I think about it and the other things that happen in the World I refer back to the Bible and its prophesy. It is a Taboo I think to talk to about that. Its scares people, hell it scares me. Between all the violence and all the natural distasters in this world I am freaking out. Personally in my life I have made a couple of friends, I am happy. A Business Venture brought us together. We all think and mesh the same. Also, my mom keeps insisting that I go out with the Radio DJ and he emailed me today! So, I may go on a date sometime soon. He keeps calling me "Hot" and "Sexy" and I am just so NOT into dating right now. Especially since that fling happened with my Ex from Job Corps.

EDUCATION: WELL, I went to go buy my other textbook for online College and two things happened. One, I lost my Debit Card and then the book is no longer for sale on the website. Classes start in less than two weeks and I need that other book. I emailed my college immediately and I hope I get a response after the holidays. I have the money and they don't have book!

WORK: Well, work is ok. Still competing being a "Temp" for a position. I finally applied to work permenantly but instead I have to play the "Temp" game and I am not going to play it with some temps that had been there before. Plus, I come back and train for this other department being told I will be there till March when really it is until the end of January. That is really unfair I think to put people through that much pressure and everytime when I try to talk to my mom about it she argues with me. But I am hoping in three months my business will take off. Plus, honestly I am not going to compete, it is not worth my time. I don't care how big the company is or how much more it will pay.

BUSINESS: I love my new business! It has given me so much hope for the future. I study and learn everyday more and more information and I haven't even recieved my Kit yet! Like I said above, I also finally met some friends! It is funny, one has the same name as I do and the other is the same age. I have some major goals for my new business for 2005. I hope they extend the promotion even longer. The $35 sign-up fee. It will help my business grow faster. I am looking for people who need Discount Health Care and also Brokers. This is going to be great for my daddy in Vegas.

Business and Calories

2004-12-21T23:23:00.000-08:00

PERSONAL: Went to a Christmas party tonight...finally...and it was sponsored by a Radio Station and I was nominated and so my daughter and family and I went and the DJ liked me! IT makes me feel kind of good, he was purposely obvious too. I had a good time though, played some bowling and some games and ate tons of pizza. I realize though I don't have time to date...I mean between Liz, Work, School and Business and soon Church & Rec Activities. I have no time!

BUSINESS: I Am not sure if I mentioned this but I am starting another business...yes I know I already have two but this is different. I enjoy all my businesses and I am going to work hard at all of them. They all take time. Sigh. But I have Faith in all of them.

WORK: Finally done training! Today was an optional day to go and I went half day because well when you are Single Mom and no matter what you need money!

I think I found a way!

2004-12-16T22:06:00.000-08:00

BUSINESS: Well remember all that talk about money? I think I found what makes me happy not that I am going to give up my other businesses but I found a way to make an income quicker. I am very excited and I still plan on building my community website and stay with my Direct Sales Beauty Business but I think I found the Domino to start the whole process. I have already signed a Broker and I think I found a Member for the Discount Health Care. I am getting closer to RSD (Regional Sales Director). That takes six members and four brokers.

PERSONAL: MY family has no faith in me, but that is typical. I am a little frustrated with work. I got into a fight with my mom. Sometimes I think she is the most ignorant person I have ever met. My Belief about her is She is Skeptical about everything and Doesn't believe in Anything.

WORK: Like I said Work is frustrating but I think I am going to fix it all tomorrow. sigh. I hate working for someone else. My mom doesn't understand that, she expects me to be another normal idiot. I think I taught myself to be better and different and hell if I am not going to be that!

That is all I have for tonight!
Jacquelyn

How do you make Money?

2004-12-12T23:15:00.000-08:00

MONEY: Sigh. It is so crazy to be so Ambitious (which happens to be one of my favorite words by the way), Determined, Persistent, and just to want to be spoiled and not know how to make money. Aren't those things supposed to be in sync with each other? Some days it just frustrates me to high hell! But I keep on it and I push it. I try to analyze and examine people like Oprah and Madonna and figure out what happened to make them so Successful? I read books like "The One Minute Millionaire" and "Think and Grow Rich". Then I look at myself and how I struggle to Understand the Concept of "Money" and Success. IT is not even all about money either, it is doing all the things you enjoy, getting what you want, being financially free, not having to worry, living life to the fullest. Honestly in a way I feel I deserve better, I think I am Different, Unique Individual. Maybe I am narcissistic or self-indulgent but at least I Am HONEST! ;)

I don't worship money but I know how much it would benefit me if I had some. Not that I can have a self-fufilling life without money but I like the Glamourous life and I would rather be self-made than marry it. I like the finer things in life, I like fresh flowers, candles, my favorite food and fine food when I want it, nice clothes, vacations whenever I want it, spa treatment any time, what is wrong with that?

PERSONAL: Right now, with all this stress on sex/relationships and money and work I am just eating myself into a hole. I can't help it. I keep saying wait till the new year but then I eat and try to eat more. Then I look at myself and hate myself. I really want to get into Professional Commerical/Promotions in 2005 but those last pictures I looked grotesque and not 16 anymore with a flat tummy and smaller figure. I wear a 9-10 now. I have no clue how that happened and my torso is just bigger and my arms and legs are still skinny. Men, If I could just meet one that would agree to my terms I would at least have that part of my life fufilled.

My point is I have needs and they need to be met. I cannot live an Isolated life anymore. Then their is my daughter, I just always hate myself for having a good time.

Well I was supposed to go to a Christmas party, my daughter and I to meet new people and my daughter got sick. That was Saturday. So the following Saturday (18th) we are going to go to the Santa's Workshop at the Rec Center and then maybe I could network there till I am ready to go to Church. Not that it is all about Networking, but I would like to meet some new people and see what they do to and have parties and everything else that normal people do.

WORK: Tomorrow I have to to do some more training. I am getting really frustrated being a temp, this is the second time the company I am with wanted me back on. It would help my income a great deal if they would just say "Your Hired!" I hope this is the final test of how my performance is.

BUSINESS: same ole, same ole.

More later,

Jacquelyn

Well exciting news and some Changes

2004-12-10T23:55:00.000-08:00

I decided because I am going to include my blog on my now focused mom relationship website, formally known as SinglezOnline.com that I am going to seperate different Writings into different sections just so I can keep the same blog without changing the name and such. Personal/Social, Professional/Work, Business, Being Mommy. So here it goes.

BEING MOMMY: My little girl or baby (she is 15 months) is acting spoiled! So now I am getting better at disciplining her and putting her to bed early, and mind you it isn't easy but I am glad I am single because then I don't have to hear about what a terrible Job I am doing from my Husband. My Daughter has really bad Congestion. I feel so bad! I have tried Vicks Humidifer, Medication. I don't know what else to try.
My daughter is such a good girl and she is already walking. I feel bad her dad didn't try to call me on her first birthday. But she had a party with Mexican Influence. I am also going to buy her some Bilingual videos and let her know more about her Culture when she is older. Right now I really want to get her into Dora the Explorer.
I feel bad that her father and I didn't stay married, we both invested three years Was I really that bad of a wife or Imperfect? sigh.

PERSONAL: Well, I have been home all week and my ex hadn't called me since last weekend and then tonight I get this mysterious call and no one picked up the phone and I am wondering now if it was him. That one weekend some signs pointed to the fact that he really liked me and then I got other signs and well I had trained myself to get over him even before the fact that anything ever happend but I just don't know why he would want to let go of something that seemed not right but we can relate to each other alot and we both seem to have the same goal. Not marriage or kids but occupy ourselves with one person who can entertain us and we can still be alone. I may have been wrong but I will just have to wait and see.

PROFESSIONAL: The first training week of the new department at work was easy. All we did was phone shadowing and basic Presentation training. WE took the test today and I know they will want me back on Monday and let me work till the end of March. I hope they hire me on by then because right now I make $10.50 an hour and if I am permanent then I start out $12.50. That is why I keep hanging on, although I really have no choice but I will lucky to find this Job even if it is through a temp service. Speaking of the temp service, I have got to know alot of the temps better that are from the same temp agency. I also called another temp agency about a Work At Home Job and now I am just waiting for her to call me back.

BUSINESS: I am an Rep for Arbonne and I have handed out all my catalogs and still hadn't any luck with making money so I called the Rec Center in my town and you can set up "Seminars" they call it and in a couple of months when I have enough inventory I am going to set up a class and an informative Presentation of Arbonne and hopefully with that I can either get customers and some hosts to host some parties. All I am lacking is inventory or else I can do it sooner. Well my dating website has changed its focused. I am going to talk about something I know more about and that is being a Single Mom and relationships you have with being a Single Mom. I had already bought the domain name and now I am going to change the templates. What I would really like is if Single Moms would post in my forum so we can get some discussions going. I am going to be able to write my own articles and such. I am very excited. I still have some information on Internet Dating but it is just going to be a webpage about Internet Dating.

Well more tomorrow,
Jacquelyn

Grant

2004-12-06T18:11:00.000-08:00

I have GOOD NEWS! I got my College Grant. I am so excited that I am going to be able to go to College now. I am still working on my website, I have to buy a new domain name now. I am changing the focus of my dating website to something a little bit more personal. I still need to list my eBay items, I will probably do it tomorrow.

I did it....

2004-12-05T23:50:00.000-08:00

Yes, I took the plunge and went and saw my ex this weekend and of course the unthinkable happened...in my case it HAD too. Now, he says he wants to see me again, we talked for hours before anything happened. But, he says he is going to call me and so forth but if he doesn't, OH well it is his loss...At least I got mine ;). oh I talked way too much, I was being such a dork and he said he didn't care. He said he liked how I was honest and open. I don't know, but it is his call now.

I am so tired and my daughter didn't go to sleep till about 11pm. Now all I can think about is business, since my job hired me back on and I will only be working till March, I hope I can get some clientelle or money coming from SOMEWHERE! I still need a way to supplement my income and I handed out my Arbonne Catalogs with a discount and I think my best bet would be to hand out the samples with a catalog (upon request-or maybe not I am not sure). I am going to post some more things up on eBay tomorrow and then of course working on my dating website. It may be a year from now before I make money from my website. But I think it is well worth the wait.

Well tomorrow I start training for the FSA department. I am excited but training doesn't give you enough hours. I think I am also going to take myself and my daughter to a church Christmas party this weekend. I also have to call my Financial Aid Advisor if she learned anything yet.

I was thinking I should do Virtual Assistant work on the side after work or on the weekend. I put up an Ad on Craigslist.com and hopefully I will get an e-mail and I was thinking of putting an Ad in the newspaper too.

I hate struggling. Well, it is kind of fun too. The most interesting thing happened. My brother became a Sales Man! He sells vacuums and does in home presentations and he says he loves his job, he just got started. He used to work in Production and was a Union Painter. Now he does this, I hope he is really good at it and gets paid good.

TO me, Sales and Marketing are so much fun to do. I was thinking of asking my current job if they have a sales department, I am sure they do.

Well enough for now~
Jacquelyn

My Thoughts

2004-11-28T21:07:00.000-08:00

I love to write in Bold, one day on a message board someone asked me why I always type in bold and I said because I just feel like it.

I was watching the movie "Something's Gotta Give" with Diane Keaton, Keanu Reeves and Jack Nicolson and watching Diane Keaton's character reminded me of me. Her personality, thoughts and feelings but just an older version. That is a very good movie, I just missed the ending though...save it for another day. The story line is based on falling in love and how it is the absoute best and worst thing for you, I still don't think I could do it again...but it is true, you have complete control when you are living alone and living life how you enjoy it and then if you let someone else comes along, you have no control over anything.

I love to be in control and I don't think I could let go of that again, I think my ex from Job Corps understands me a little bit and probably won't try to take things as far as say "seeing each other" I especially don't want to see a man if he feels sympathony or a need to be a hero and save you from being a Single Mom. That happened with the guy I was seeing after I seperated from My Husband, at least that is how I felt, well actually I think he wanted me to save him from his bar hopping sex (oops, can I use the word?) binges. Anyway, there are a lot more women out there now who feel the way I do...especially if they have been married once already.

Tomorrow I am going to seek Employment, I am kind of scared of the idea of working from home, doesn't that sound crazy? Especially since I am working on the Internet just so I could be at home! I found a Job in DWS that needs someone to work from home and I am going to call Monday and I am also going to call Employment services again. Now that it seems more real it just seems harder for me to do, you know I went to all the websites that needed moms from home and I just couldn't get myself to apply, even though I have all the requirements (Computer stuff).

I am getting good at eBay, I sold two items already being a "Newbie" and all. I guess eBay is the best resort when you need fast income. I have my dating site that I need to find my "niche" and I have been talking to my internet marketing coach but I really feel my niche is regular online daters. I don't know it is a big decision and maybe I still need to do some research. It is stressful. Arbonne, I plan to leave catalogs everywhere and throw a party one of these days. Owning a business is quite of an investment, any kind of business. I just hope all this investing pays off. Maybe I just need to plan better and I will get better results.

Hmmmm my thoughts ran out for the night.

Jacquelyn

Day after Turkey Day.....Unemployed

2004-11-26T22:42:00.000-08:00

My Personality Disorder Results!

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Low
Histrionic:	High
Narcissistic:	High
Avoidant:	High
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

Today was my last day of my wonderful Job! :( I may be called next week or the week after for another project from my Job if not then I need to find Employment. I already called my two temp agencies and told them I needed work and hopefully they will have something for me Monday...I am also going to apply for some Work At Home Jobs. I know of a few places.

I have been also thinking alot about my businesses...I think I really chose some tough ones. But I am going to make it with my ventures, I know I am.

I think that may be all for tonight!

Jacquelyn

Happy Thanksgiving!

2004-11-25T22:40:00.000-08:00

Now I love it, don't get me wrong but it is a very boring day...even visiting with other family members is boring. All you do is cook for 3 hours and then eat for about 15 minutes. I love the food though. What do I have to be thankful for? Hmmm...My Daughter, My Family, Opportunity and the Persuit of Success.

I love the Internet. You can meet people so many differnet ways. You have webcams, chatrooms, hot or not, message boards, dating websites. It is crazy. I met my photographers that way, over a PC!

I love my daughter but she is driving me crazy today. She will not let me do anything, not even sit down. I asked my mom to watch her for a while cause I just cannot take it anymore.

I cannot believe I am hungry again...I think I am going to make me a turkey sandwich. Well instead I cut up veggies for tomorrow's Breakfast party at Work.

I feel old and fat...usually I have a lot better confidence but after I had my daughter and my photoshoot and never leaving the house you start to kind of feel bad but knowing my ex from Job Corps is still interested in me makes me feel good. :)

The oddest thing happened this Thanksgiving...my hard-up, shut-up brother was being sentimental and he talked for hours, I guess living on your own really brings you into Reality and changes you. He is 20. I was suprised and pleased. I have never seen him act in such a way. We discussed a lot of things.

I received my e-pin (signature) and submitted my Financial Aid today for College. The problem I am worried about is I have no financial statements or records of employment for 2003 because I was in Mexico and Pregnant! So, I hope they call me and ask me why or something just so I am not denied aide to go to College. I am excited about starting College in January Online.

I am so happy I am getting Microsoft Office and My Printer. That is the way to do Business! I have some more business ideas but until my businesses began to flourish I am going to hold off on starting yet ANOTHER one. Right now, I am working on My Dating site, Arbonne Skin Care and eBay. I am going to start promoting Arbonne next week and I already have things on eBay and my website I am consistently working on.

Well, it is late and I think I am going to bed.

Good Night and Happy Thanksgiving.

Jaccquelyn

Being a Single Mom......Caffeine

2004-11-22T22:30:00.000-08:00

I written before about being a Single Mom (in my old Blog) but I need to bring it up again because I was more or less asked out on a date...with my ex from school. Now, I am interested but, I don't know if I can take that step again to get involved again...I mean I LOVE My Freedom and I don't know if I can give and sacrifice so much and not get anything in return again...I gave everything, every ounce I could to my husband and look it where our relationship is? On top of that I am not even divorced and I don't know if I can do that...he is in Mexico and I am sure he could get married and live his perfect life only his mother dreamed of...anyway, my ex asked me out the day I graduated...he told me he still had feelings for me and I do too but OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I just cannot take this...it is mostly physical and emotional that takes a place in this moment...at least I like to believe that it is all it is...I was going to call him today and I just decided not too. I am suppose to hang out with him and his friends anyway some time. Being a Single Mom and dating is just completely different than just being a girl and dating. There is a whole lot more to think about. Would if he just wants to use me? I feel like I am a little vulnerable right now. I am a smart girl and I always used to tell him straight...I feel confused and what one part of me wants the other part of me doesn't want. Usually the other part wins. Plus another part of me still wants and believes in this fantasy that my husband and I will one day reunite even though he is in Mexico and I am here. Sick isn't it? He wasn't a bad person. His mother just influenced him too much.

Caffeine, I love my cup of coffee in the morning and then I love my Dr. Pepper/Coke in the afternoon...I feel so guilty though and I try to quit drinking so much Caffeine anytime. But I cannot help it. I hate to use the word "addicted" but that is sometimes how I feel. Plus do you know what it does to your skin? I am going to start drinking Sprite or juice because it is rediculous how much we consume of coke products.

My Graduation

2004-11-18T22:32:00.000-08:00

Well today I went to my Graduation at Job Corps, which is where I decided to go after I came back from Mexico (A Long Story for another Day) anyway, I was in Business Technologies (Better office skills training) and I had my Graduation, it was a very quick day and I had asked for the day off but after was the REAL surprise.

My ex, who was the guy I dated the longest while I was there wrote in my year book that he still has feelings for me and before when he signed it he told me to read it after I had left. Woo in my book an Earth Shaker. I am not much of a Dater and at this point in my life could care less about walking down that aisle one more time....I bet you all are thinking...he never said that....no he didn't but in his signature he used the word "future" and naturally he would think the opposite of what I do about Relationships...I don't believe in Commitment anymore but see the 'dumb' side of me sees more then that with him...and plus I think the fact that it has been so long for me and him as well could have something to do with it.

We have ALOT in common. He thinks my daughter is cute. But as far as relationships go, I have issues. I also think he may have alterior motive but then again I think that about everybody. I love being Single again....I think we could probably "see each other" that would work for me. Oh and I broke up with him because it was getting to that point that it could actually turn into a relationship.

Am I wrong? Am I confused? I don't know. Could I see him on a Regular basis? Yes. See I am picky, I couldn't just have a one nighter but I could see myself seeing someone regularly if I knew him well and vice versa.

I had this entry at another blog but I decided to stick with my Original!

Well.....

2004-11-14T01:30:00.000-08:00

I am proud of myself. I finally did some more work on my website and I ordered some supplies for Arbonne business. If I keep it up I may be banking it in a year! :) I used the products, they are specialty skin care products and I think I deserve a little better then dollar skin care creams now. I also have a Perm now, and I love it! Oh and I posted 1 book on Ebay! I want to do it all and I will. I am really depending that my website will go successful for some passive income.

I had my photo shoot today and it was fun. I was too tired, honestly I was happy when it was over. But I still want to continue to do photo shoots, I love to get dressed up and have my picture taken and I would like to have the exposure. The photographer who I worked with a couple of times before that told me he would act as my manager and that he wanted to shoot me nude. My mom and I both agreed that if I am going to do nudity it should be for Playboy or Perfect 10 magazine. That was my whole idea anyway. Plus I don't think I am really in shape yet to pose nude.

Let me see, what else is going on? Oh I ordered a Printer off Ebay and I get it in a couple of days...I have spent so much money, it is crazy! I bought myself a mink throw ($30), skin care products from my Direct Sales Business Arbonne, Checks (I need those), something from Fredericks! I love it though. I feel like I can do anything.

My Job is still going well. I love it, I hope I get employed by the Company by the end of the month. They will be having a Christmas party and I would love to go if they hire me on. Even though I am going on shopping sprees right now, if I get the Job I can start saving up for my own CAR! Then Apartment. But until I know they are hiring me, I am just fine. We are having another pot luck on Friday and this time I want to make something delicious. I am going to my Graduation at Job Corps on the 18th and I am so excited!!! If you want something you know you can make it happen. Everything I ever wanted I made happen. I told everyone at Job Corps, I want a 10 dollar Job and to leave school and come back and Graduate and everyone told me know and that I wouldn't be able too and look I am already doing it! YOU MAKE THINGS HAPPEN!

I cannot believe people have left comments on my blog! Thanks!

I cannot believe that it is almost 2005. Crazy. I LOVE Thanksgiving. I especially LOVE the Turkey, Mashed Potatoes, Stuffing and Cranberry sauce. Yummy! Yummy!

I don't know but I have thought of being on Reality TV but I am sure everyone has. I just think it would interesting thing to do, I just couldn't handle being away from my daughter if I was chosen. I would rather her travel with me anyway if I was going to do any model/acting/tv work at all.

I also want to take a CPR Class, First Aid and maybe a Self-Defense class. Especially before I live by myself. I also want to be able to work from Home. I am still interested in getting involved in Real Estate Investing. Which reminds me, someone from Job Corps was talking to me about a Financial Company called Primerica and now all I hear about is their competitor World Financial Group. It seems every person I talk to is working with WFG. I find that so odd. From my Job Corps Instructor to My co-worker, to someone in the cell phone business! What does that mean??

Anyway, I still miss my husband. He was My Jungito (monkey)! I wonder what kind of chick he is with. I wonder if he at all thinks about me and my daughter. He had done me wrong and I still want to be with him. I must be crazy.

I hope in February I can go to Vegas for a couple of days. I really want to see my dad. Vegas is so crazy though.

I put this cool toy on my Gift Registry @ Walmart for my Daughter. It costs about $50 bucks but it is worth it. I am excited to give it to her for Christmas. I also know what I want to get my dad. A Care Package. I know he needs it and I would send him some special treats and necessities. I hope he is doing ok.

Well I talked enough,
Jacquelyn

It Snowed!

2004-11-01T22:07:00.000-08:00

Another Monday morning and I woke up late again! I hate rushing in the morning, I usually like to sip a cup of coffee for about 10 minutes before I go to work. My Job is going well. We had a Halloween Costume Contest on Friday and today we had a Pot Luck. I really enjoy my Call Center job. All the people that call me are so understanding and they appreciate what you do for them.

I have a photoshoot in a couple of weeks and I am also meeting with a Modeling Agent. I already went over the specs and it is not a scam. I am excited, I am going to get my hair done next week and some exposure.

I decided kind of what kind of business I am going to go for. I may combine it with something else. I am still trying to figure out what I am going to do about my website.

I am feeling kind of lonely, and I really hate that! I am also very picky about who I date and their really is no potential out there at all!

More Later
Jacquelyn

Do I need a Title?

2004-10-31T00:40:00.000-07:00

Well still working. I obviously past the test at work. Monday I go in and pay my $35.00 fee for College and I am getting DSL soon so I can do my College Online better. Then hopefully I will start college in January.

Aside from the business I have, which has turned into a slooooooooooooow long term project. Like I said before, Internet Marketing is hard. I am going to start another business offline. I was thinking of selling Promotional Products for businesses in my area and surrounding areas. I was also thinking of getting into Direct Sales and possibly meet some new people and make an income doing that since I had just moved to the area. I know I can do it if I just set my mind to it. I mean I haven't given up on my Dating Site and I won't either. I am also thinking of doing Ebay still as well as well as my mother.

I have been thinking about my husband alot lately. I miss him. I just wondered what happened and why did things have to turn out this way? I also wish that maybe it was better that I was never married. But I have a beautiful daughter because of it. Sigh. My Life has been so crazy these past years. I was remembering last night being 6 months pregnant and living in Mexico and washing my husband's clothes.

I think I am going to start my photo shoots in November. I already have some photographers lined up. I am excited to get that going again.

More Later,

Jacquelyn

My Day

2004-10-26T22:17:00.000-07:00

Well, we finally took the test, I will have to finish it tomorrow. I hope I do well on it. I would like to start working and getting on the phones. Training test for the company I will possibly be working for. My day went fast and I still stayed later. Tomorrow I go to work an hour later and I get off about the same time.

Right now, this late at night (which I love) I am surfing the web. I love it because no one is awake and it is quiet, the only thing you can hear is my tapping the keyboard with my fingers.

Well, I may or may not go to the Strip Club this weekend. Depending upon my friends. I really need to go out and get wasted. I am more than just a Working Mother. I like to socialize and go dancing and things like that. I am just more worried about this Job I am at right now.

I am excited about going to college, I really am. I have never gone and I am really anxious to study and things like that. Even though it isn't conventional because it will be online, it will still be college.

I am looking up Wallpapers for my new computer I bought last weekend. I am also looking at Celebrity Merchandise.

I LOVE Being Single! I love the freedom of it, the fact that I can buy whatever I want and nobody can tell me "No." Watch whatever I want; go to sleep whenever I want. I can also flirt if I felt like it, do almost anything I want. The reason why I say almost is because I still have to take care of my daughter, she is my responsibility and I love her very much. But I still have my freedoms. :)

Well I couldn't get my website up. The template I bought wouldn't let me purchase it for some stupid reasons.

More Tomorrow

Jacquelyn

Modeling and College

2004-10-25T21:54:00.000-07:00

Well work went fast again. But, I did finally speak to the Financial Advisor in person for Columbia College and I just have to turn in my application and do paperwork for financial aid. Then by January I should be doing College. I am excited to actually study because it has been so long and at Job Corps you don't really study and have to keep up. You work at your own pace and you don't really learn that much.

Modeling! One of my old Photographers contacted Me and so did a couple of others! So in the next couple of months or so I will start doing Photo Shoots. The silly part about it is I started Modeling in front of my mirrors trying on clothes I would like to wear for my photo shoots. My body really hasn't changed after My Daughter was born. I mean I have no stretch marks and my hips got a little bigger but that is it. I am really excited about that also! I hope to have a Successful Modeling Website on the Net also. Honestly from all the promoting I did with my alias when I was 17 if you search my name it will come up on every page and it still does just with not the right URL (I still haven't purchased a domain-LOL) but I will. I was also thinking of starting to do Promotions and Auditions in Utah. Which will come a little bit later.

I am so happy that My Plans are working. I mean I have waited and waited and FINALLY! I am able to do what I want. I watched a special tonight about Mexico and it reminded me of my husband and how much I feel like Mexico is a part of me and especially my Daughter. I hope when I am Financially Independent I can go back and it some Tacos de Tripas con cebollitas fritas. Si me entiende si es Mexicano de Michoacan! :)

Tell you what happens tomorrow.
Jacquelyn

Business and Mom

2004-10-24T14:35:00.000-07:00

First lets start with Mom, I Love her dearly. I got into a huge argument with her today about something you deep down knew I was right about. I realized I cannot live at home anymore and yesterday she discovered (by accident) the blog I had wrote about going back to Mexico instead of living here. And, yes, I felt bad and she wasn't suppose to see it but what can I do about it now? I am right now looking for another way to supplement my income in order to move out and have extra money for my daughter and I.

Speaking of...till my Dating website gets off the ground I was thinking of becoming a Distributor and selling on Ebay. I haven't ever done that and I would sure like to try. I sent away for the wholesale catalogs and they should be here in a couple of weeks. I love catalogs and I should be getting alot soon.

Well my friend who was going to Wendover with me cancelled. She has to have her surgery which she told me about before we made these plans. I am a little disappointed though. I just hope my other friend doesn't skip out on me on going to the Strip Club.

Well I am still in Training at Work and I take another test on Wednesday to see I am employable. I am nervous and this is the second test I have taken with this company. I will know by Thursday if I have the Job. I could really use this Job, if not then it is back to the drawing board. Which I already have a couple of Plan B's. I also have to call about Columbia College this week too so I can register for Late Fall.

More Later,
Jacquelyn

John Goddard

2004-10-23T22:41:00.000-07:00

No he isn't a boyfriend, he is more of an Inspiration.
I first heard about him in High School taking my Career Class right before Drivers Ed Training and I never forgot what he did, I just forgot who he was. Now what he did was write a 127 goal list and accomplished 108 of all his goals and my thought was 'wow' if he could do it then so can I!

Then life happened and here I am trying to be the Success, Ambitious, Determind Person I was 6 years ago. I was lucky enough today to find about him again while looking through books in the thrift store for the good ole' price of $1. What book was it? Chicken Soup for the Soul now I picked up this book wondering why it was so Popular and I started reading through it under "Live Your Dream" section and Bam! there was his story and I was happy to find it and Remember his name.

Back to the Inspiration he gave me. Certain people inspire me to write and accomplish my goals...Madonna, Oprah, Anthony Robbins, John Goddard...now I have the urge to write and keep in mind I am not a good writer and the only writing I wanted to ever do was write Lyrics for Music, not poetry nor short stories. I didn't really consider that writing till now, I am start to really like writing and I would like to take a course on it. Hopefully I will if I am able to go to college (Online).

I am going to write my own 'Life List' and accomplish all my goals as well. And being this Ambitious makes me a Self-Help/Workaholic/Perfectionist.

My Dating website should be up again by the end of this weekend and I did order my Computer. I am very excited about that! Just more Independence from My Family.

What more do I have to say? I guess goodnight.

Jacquelyn

ARHHHHHHHHH!

2004-10-23T10:07:00.000-07:00

God I wish I could move out, which is virtually impossible at least for another year. Being 22 with a child and living at home is just driving me crazy! I pay rent-thank goodness! I am going to have to find some way to supplement my income though. That will be a little hard considering the fact that I have no transportation.

Anyway, my checks barely cover rent and child care which only leaves me about 800 for the month. Now, I know how to budget and everything but when your a girl you want things and I do believe in making sacrifices when you have children but I won't be young forever.

I still feel like my mom is trying to control my life. Sometimes I think I would rather go back to Mexico with my husband just so I don't have to deal with my mother trying to take over the responsibility of my daughter. That is why it is really important to me that I have Financial Independence.

Jacquelyn

Well....TGIF!!!

2004-10-22T14:09:00.000-07:00

Anyway, work was good. We left at 12 pm today. I also called Columbia about taking online classes and their Financial Aid Advisor had already left for the day. I will try again Monday. Boy, I live a very boring life. I have no plans this weekend except to buy a computer. I got my money from Job Corps and I might be Graduating in November if they let me come back and do it. You ask why wouldn't they? Because I left early because I had a JOB! That is usually the whole point of going there, if anyone knows about it or has ever attended.

I have been dying to take a vacation but with just starting this new job and having to pay $75 a week for a babysitter and rent it is kind of impossible at this time. Hopefully my friends won't back out on me and go with me to Wendover and to a strip club. Why a strip club? Because I think it would be fun!

Anyway, this weekend besides I need to work on my Dating Website. It is kind of silly to have a dating website when I don't even date. The irony! LOL. Again anyway it is important that I profit from my website just so I know I can make money and plus Affiliate Marketing really is hard. I decided to redo my website and that takes a LOT OF TIME!

So, I think I have enough to occupy my time now.

Jacquelyn

2004-10-20T14:47:00.000-07:00

This is going to be about Blogs. I decided to submit my Blog and read some others. I do want people to go to my blog and leave their comments. It interests me in what they have to say. That is why people start blogs. To have someone read and make comments plus just another way of self-expression.

I don't think each blog entry should be on one subject. Today I was at work and then I went and got my daughter from the babysitters. I am on assignment for a temp agency and hopefully they will hire me after the assignment is over (the company).

I am also looking into going to college (online) because I don't have time and I want to expand my mind and get paid better.

The things I am working on now after Job Corps is working, possibly getting back into Modeling, Affiliate Marketing. I want to stay busy and make money and reach my Financial Independence.

I am a Workaholic-Perfectionist. I was never in the past and after being married, having a child and being barefoot and pregnant living in Mexico. I decided I should go after what I want. My goal is to also Work At Home so I can be at home with my daughter. She is 1 and I have been in Job Corps since she was 4 months. Now that I am home I am trying to get my Affiliate Dating site to earn some passive income. Let me tell you Internet Promotion is HARD!

My Professional life is fine. But My Personal is not doing so well and I hope that in two weeks I can go to a Strip Club and Wendover and have a good time. My only concern is my friends will back out on me.

My Daughter. Raising children is Hard! But I Love her so much. I got off early today and got her from the babysitters but she refuses to lay down for a nap. So she is driving both me and my mom crazy. My mom is done with watching her. She watched her the whole time I was in Job Corps but I also would like a break too. But I also asked to be a Mommy. This was no accident (I don't believe in accidents like this). Anyway going straight from Job Corps to work with no break in between you get kind of tired.

More Later,

Jacquelyn