Life Events and Changes

HOLIDAYS: I know everyone loves the Holidays but honestly after everything (being a Jehovah Witness and changing my views about things, I really don't care for them. I still celebrated but I just will be happy when the season goes away.

PERSONAL: The distaster around Asia is very depressing, everytime when I think about it and the other things that happen in the World I refer back to the Bible and its prophesy. It is a Taboo I think to talk to about that. Its scares people, hell it scares me. Between all the violence and all the natural distasters in this world I am freaking out. Personally in my life I have made a couple of friends, I am happy. A Business Venture brought us together. We all think and mesh the same. Also, my mom keeps insisting that I go out with the Radio DJ and he emailed me today! So, I may go on a date sometime soon. He keeps calling me "Hot" and "Sexy" and I am just so NOT into dating right now. Especially since that fling happened with my Ex from Job Corps.

EDUCATION: WELL, I went to go buy my other textbook for online College and two things happened. One, I lost my Debit Card and then the book is no longer for sale on the website. Classes start in less than two weeks and I need that other book. I emailed my college immediately and I hope I get a response after the holidays. I have the money and they don't have book!

WORK: Well, work is ok. Still competing being a "Temp" for a position. I finally applied to work permenantly but instead I have to play the "Temp" game and I am not going to play it with some temps that had been there before. Plus, I come back and train for this other department being told I will be there till March when really it is until the end of January. That is really unfair I think to put people through that much pressure and everytime when I try to talk to my mom about it she argues with me. But I am hoping in three months my business will take off. Plus, honestly I am not going to compete, it is not worth my time. I don't care how big the company is or how much more it will pay.

BUSINESS: I love my new business! It has given me so much hope for the future. I study and learn everyday more and more information and I haven't even recieved my Kit yet! Like I said above, I also finally met some friends! It is funny, one has the same name as I do and the other is the same age. I have some major goals for my new business for 2005. I hope they extend the promotion even longer. The $35 sign-up fee. It will help my business grow faster. I am looking for people who need Discount Health Care and also Brokers. This is going to be great for my daddy in Vegas.

Business and Calories

PERSONAL: Went to a Christmas party tonight...finally...and it was sponsored by a Radio Station and I was nominated and so my daughter and family and I went and the DJ liked me! IT makes me feel kind of good, he was purposely obvious too. I had a good time though, played some bowling and some games and ate tons of pizza. I realize though I don't have time to date...I mean between Liz, Work, School and Business and soon Church & Rec Activities. I have no time!

BUSINESS: I Am not sure if I mentioned this but I am starting another business...yes I know I already have two but this is different. I enjoy all my businesses and I am going to work hard at all of them. They all take time. Sigh. But I have Faith in all of them.

WORK: Finally done training! Today was an optional day to go and I went half day because well when you are Single Mom and no matter what you need money!

I think I found a way!

BUSINESS: Well remember all that talk about money? I think I found what makes me happy not that I am going to give up my other businesses but I found a way to make an income quicker. I am very excited and I still plan on building my community website and stay with my Direct Sales Beauty Business but I think I found the Domino to start the whole process. I have already signed a Broker and I think I found a Member for the Discount Health Care. I am getting closer to RSD (Regional Sales Director). That takes six members and four brokers.

PERSONAL: MY family has no faith in me, but that is typical. I am a little frustrated with work. I got into a fight with my mom. Sometimes I think she is the most ignorant person I have ever met. My Belief about her is She is Skeptical about everything and Doesn't believe in Anything.

WORK: Like I said Work is frustrating but I think I am going to fix it all tomorrow. sigh. I hate working for someone else. My mom doesn't understand that, she expects me to be another normal idiot. I think I taught myself to be better and different and hell if I am not going to be that!

That is all I have for tonight!
Jacquelyn

How do you make Money?

MONEY: Sigh. It is so crazy to be so Ambitious (which happens to be one of my favorite words by the way), Determined, Persistent, and just to want to be spoiled and not know how to make money. Aren't those things supposed to be in sync with each other? Some days it just frustrates me to high hell! But I keep on it and I push it. I try to analyze and examine people like Oprah and Madonna and figure out what happened to make them so Successful? I read books like "The One Minute Millionaire" and "Think and Grow Rich". Then I look at myself and how I struggle to Understand the Concept of "Money" and Success. IT is not even all about money either, it is doing all the things you enjoy, getting what you want, being financially free, not having to worry, living life to the fullest. Honestly in a way I feel I deserve better, I think I am Different, Unique Individual. Maybe I am narcissistic or self-indulgent but at least I Am HONEST! ;)

I don't worship money but I know how much it would benefit me if I had some. Not that I can have a self-fufilling life without money but I like the Glamourous life and I would rather be self-made than marry it. I like the finer things in life, I like fresh flowers, candles, my favorite food and fine food when I want it, nice clothes, vacations whenever I want it, spa treatment any time, what is wrong with that?

PERSONAL: Right now, with all this stress on sex/relationships and money and work I am just eating myself into a hole. I can't help it. I keep saying wait till the new year but then I eat and try to eat more. Then I look at myself and hate myself. I really want to get into Professional Commerical/Promotions in 2005 but those last pictures I looked grotesque and not 16 anymore with a flat tummy and smaller figure. I wear a 9-10 now. I have no clue how that happened and my torso is just bigger and my arms and legs are still skinny. Men, If I could just meet one that would agree to my terms I would at least have that part of my life fufilled.

My point is I have needs and they need to be met. I cannot live an Isolated life anymore. Then their is my daughter, I just always hate myself for having a good time.

Well I was supposed to go to a Christmas party, my daughter and I to meet new people and my daughter got sick. That was Saturday. So the following Saturday (18th) we are going to go to the Santa's Workshop at the Rec Center and then maybe I could network there till I am ready to go to Church. Not that it is all about Networking, but I would like to meet some new people and see what they do to and have parties and everything else that normal people do.

WORK: Tomorrow I have to to do some more training. I am getting really frustrated being a temp, this is the second time the company I am with wanted me back on. It would help my income a great deal if they would just say "Your Hired!" I hope this is the final test of how my performance is.

BUSINESS: same ole, same ole.

More later,

Jacquelyn

Well exciting news and some Changes

I decided because I am going to include my blog on my now focused mom relationship website, formally known as SinglezOnline.com that I am going to seperate different Writings into different sections just so I can keep the same blog without changing the name and such. Personal/Social, Professional/Work, Business, Being Mommy. So here it goes.

BEING MOMMY: My little girl or baby (she is 15 months) is acting spoiled! So now I am getting better at disciplining her and putting her to bed early, and mind you it isn't easy but I am glad I am single because then I don't have to hear about what a terrible Job I am doing from my Husband. My Daughter has really bad Congestion. I feel so bad! I have tried Vicks Humidifer, Medication. I don't know what else to try.
My daughter is such a good girl and she is already walking. I feel bad her dad didn't try to call me on her first birthday. But she had a party with Mexican Influence. I am also going to buy her some Bilingual videos and let her know more about her Culture when she is older. Right now I really want to get her into Dora the Explorer.
I feel bad that her father and I didn't stay married, we both invested three years Was I really that bad of a wife or Imperfect? sigh.

PERSONAL: Well, I have been home all week and my ex hadn't called me since last weekend and then tonight I get this mysterious call and no one picked up the phone and I am wondering now if it was him. That one weekend some signs pointed to the fact that he really liked me and then I got other signs and well I had trained myself to get over him even before the fact that anything ever happend but I just don't know why he would want to let go of something that seemed not right but we can relate to each other alot and we both seem to have the same goal. Not marriage or kids but occupy ourselves with one person who can entertain us and we can still be alone. I may have been wrong but I will just have to wait and see.

PROFESSIONAL: The first training week of the new department at work was easy. All we did was phone shadowing and basic Presentation training. WE took the test today and I know they will want me back on Monday and let me work till the end of March. I hope they hire me on by then because right now I make $10.50 an hour and if I am permanent then I start out $12.50. That is why I keep hanging on, although I really have no choice but I will lucky to find this Job even if it is through a temp service. Speaking of the temp service, I have got to know alot of the temps better that are from the same temp agency. I also called another temp agency about a Work At Home Job and now I am just waiting for her to call me back.

BUSINESS: I am an Rep for Arbonne and I have handed out all my catalogs and still hadn't any luck with making money so I called the Rec Center in my town and you can set up "Seminars" they call it and in a couple of months when I have enough inventory I am going to set up a class and an informative Presentation of Arbonne and hopefully with that I can either get customers and some hosts to host some parties. All I am lacking is inventory or else I can do it sooner. Well my dating website has changed its focused. I am going to talk about something I know more about and that is being a Single Mom and relationships you have with being a Single Mom. I had already bought the domain name and now I am going to change the templates. What I would really like is if Single Moms would post in my forum so we can get some discussions going. I am going to be able to write my own articles and such. I am very excited. I still have some information on Internet Dating but it is just going to be a webpage about Internet Dating.

Well more tomorrow,
Jacquelyn

Grant

I have GOOD NEWS! I got my College Grant. I am so excited that I am going to be able to go to College now. I am still working on my website, I have to buy a new domain name now. I am changing the focus of my dating website to something a little bit more personal. I still need to list my eBay items, I will probably do it tomorrow.

I did it....

Yes, I took the plunge and went and saw my ex this weekend and of course the unthinkable happened...in my case it HAD too. Now, he says he wants to see me again, we talked for hours before anything happened. But, he says he is going to call me and so forth but if he doesn't, OH well it is his loss...At least I got mine ;). oh I talked way too much, I was being such a dork and he said he didn't care. He said he liked how I was honest and open. I don't know, but it is his call now.

I am so tired and my daughter didn't go to sleep till about 11pm. Now all I can think about is business, since my job hired me back on and I will only be working till March, I hope I can get some clientelle or money coming from SOMEWHERE! I still need a way to supplement my income and I handed out my Arbonne Catalogs with a discount and I think my best bet would be to hand out the samples with a catalog (upon request-or maybe not I am not sure). I am going to post some more things up on eBay tomorrow and then of course working on my dating website. It may be a year from now before I make money from my website. But I think it is well worth the wait.

Well tomorrow I start training for the FSA department. I am excited but training doesn't give you enough hours. I think I am also going to take myself and my daughter to a church Christmas party this weekend. I also have to call my Financial Aid Advisor if she learned anything yet.

I was thinking I should do Virtual Assistant work on the side after work or on the weekend. I put up an Ad on Craigslist.com and hopefully I will get an e-mail and I was thinking of putting an Ad in the newspaper too.

I hate struggling. Well, it is kind of fun too. The most interesting thing happened. My brother became a Sales Man! He sells vacuums and does in home presentations and he says he loves his job, he just got started. He used to work in Production and was a Union Painter. Now he does this, I hope he is really good at it and gets paid good.

TO me, Sales and Marketing are so much fun to do. I was thinking of asking my current job if they have a sales department, I am sure they do.

Well enough for now~
Jacquelyn