My Las Vegas Vacation

Well it all started Friday Morning at 5 am. I got ready and got my daughter ready and my friend came over and picked us and immediately we went to the 96.3 to see a Psychic who is there every Friday before we headed out for Vegas.

She told me some very interesting things about myself. I had asked her about Personal Relationships and she had told me right now I am like a Wounded Warrior. I keep Relationships at Sword Length and I am content if they do not work out and it is pointless for me to persue them. She said I will probably be thinking about falling in love in 2 years. She also said that I like to care for others and I should be a teacher of some sort for a Career. She said she also sees me taking classes and seeking more education. I thought the whole thing was very interesting and will be doing a full reading in the near future.

Well after the whole Radio Station reading we headed out for Vegas after we had Breakfast at McDonalds.

Friday night after we went into Vegas we went and saw my dad and let him see his Grandbaby for the second time in his life...it has been two years since he last saw her...he said she was adorable. She was scared of him at first but then after a while warmed up to my dad which made me feel better. Friday night we were going to hang out with my dad but he had to work late so we took the kids to dinner at a Casino and then toured the Strip back to the house and stopped to get groceries then decided to hit the hay because it had been a long drive up to Vegas. Ahhh sleep.

The next day we woke up and had breakfast and drawing at the TimeShares Breakfast Roo. I was really surprised that they had a theme of "Bloody Mary's and Donuts" I really didn't think they were REAL Bloody Mary's LOL. I also thought they were pretty good but quite strong. Then after the Breakfast we headed out and went to go see my dad and head out to 'Circus Circus'for the kids and then check out the new Casinos on the Strip like Paris Casino, NY, NY Casino...they all looked Grand and Beautiful. Then FINALLY we took the kids back home to play and sleep and then headed out to Sam's Town so that the BIG Kids Could Play! LOL. I played my usual Black Jack and I learned Roulette from my friend and my dad just watched and then we had this Wonderful dinner at the Casino...Steak and Crab Cakes, Soup, Baked Potato and what it seemed this half gallon size German Beer. It was all really good food. Then we all decided to go home and go to bed since we had to go back Sunday to Utah. I said Goodbye to my dad and then we went home and went to bed. But one of my favorite things I love to do when I am at a Casino is sit at the Black Jack Table with a Pina Colada and Play...it is one of my favorite things and I make sure every time when I am in Wendover or Vegas to keep my own Personal Tradition alive. :) I also only lost $20. :)

The next day we were out and headed back to Utah. It seemed like the drive took forever. It was pretty quiet most the way back. We also stopped and saw my friend's sister.

About half way back I had received a phone call from Brent Hunsaker of Channel 4 News about the whole 12DailyPro thing...I won't say exactly what we talked about but it turned into a heated discussion.

That pretty much ended my weekend. Next weekend is Convention :) in North Carolina!

I am sad

I am so sad and depressed. My life is just flashed before my eyes...I am no longer with my husband and I am a single mom...and I cannot fathom the idea of being with anyone ever again...I am so lonely it hurts...I have literally anything I can possibly want...and it doesn't help. My poor daughter...I always focus on all this money I am making and my websites and being online yet I don't spend enough time with her. I am so bad. I remember when I was still pregnant and living in Mexico with my husband, who is no longer my husband now. :*( I have a my beautiful Daughter,great Job, great Friends, all the stuff I want and I am so miserable. I hope I am PMSing because I cannot stop crying even if I wanted too. I wish I could go back or something, anything...Oh just make it stop...why do things happen the way they do?? Why? They say we choose our own destiny then why would do this to myself then? No one understands and I am not going to try to make them too either. I guess I just have to "deal" and move on. But I really can't because I don't get it. I used to believe in fairy tales and I learned a lesson there let me tell you. AND no marriage is Perfect and I am not even sure worth it. God I am so sad!

TGR Action Steps

Ok I pretty much think I have everything covered for My Supplies.

1) Think and Grow Rich Book
2) Action Pack
3) Pen
4) 3x5 Filiing Cards
5 Yellow Highlighter

Now I just need to pick a half hour everyday to do this...it has to be at the same time everyday according to the book...and between 5-7 Days.

Hmmmm I want to do this the FULL 7 Days. I am going to say 1 pm everyday.

It also says that I must show My Family and Friends to show them that I Am Serious. Interesting. I guess I will need to do that.

So tomorrow, I will begin on the FIRST Action Step and then Log it. I will be at work when I do my first half hour with this but I will be on "Break" time since I work the Split Shift.

"Think and Grow Rich" by Napoleon Hill

I am going to change the Focus of "Jacquelyn's World" Blog a little bit because I am working on an Experiment to Change My Life and I already have 4 Blogs and I do not want to start another one. :)

I am entrigued by the "Think and Grow Rich" book by Mr. Hill. I want to develop the knowledege I learn and make it REAL. I am also using my Blog to track my progress and hold myself accountable.

The funny thing is I had read it the first time, had all my notes in it and then I lost it. The funny part is I was drawn to the book again. So I had ordered it off of Amazon.com, the version I had ordered was "Think and Grow Rich Action Pack" and the original version which I think will also help me better acheive Maximum Success. I want to make this book my primary focus for the next 12 months and I want to track my progress with My Blog.

So Beginning Sunday, November 20th I will be starting the TGR (Think and Grow Rich) Process.

Happy Halloween!

Sigh. What a day...Work was Great as usual. I Won a Halloween Contest. I LOVE Winning. :)

So, I finally got done with the last guy I was seeing...he and I were sooooooooooooo not right for each other, in more ways than one LOL...anyway...I always saw this hot guy at work...OMG I think he's hot and I finally get the nerve to even ask about him and it turns out he has a girlfriend! FIGURES!

So, now loneliness is striking me again, but whatever I am used it to it. 2 years, what else is new???

I did take my daughter Trick or Treating! It was great. She was tired so I had to cut it a little short but she had fun and got some candy that I do not want her to eat LOL. 2 year olds do not need Candy.

I think I am just too weird to get involved with anyone. I am also worried about getting involved with egomaniacs and I have to worry...UGH no. Although dating complete nerds and jerks are not at the top of my list neither. Where can I Win? Not likely. Plus, who wants a Woman with Baggage and a small gut who could care less if you loved her or not?? :D Plus I don't think any man out there deserves Me anyway.
:P

Anyway, I am working on a Plan to Make LOTS of Money so I can hire an Housekeeper and just do the stuff I enjoy and be with my daughter, and let me tell you with the stuff I am doing lately it isn't no Pipe Dream.

I miss the 90's. Sigh. Time just flies by...I cannot believe I will be 24 next year. Do you even KNOW how scary that is???

I will be working on a Divorce in 2006 and I will also be moving to Oregon. BIG CHANGES AHEAD.

My Favorite Holiday that is coming up...since this is the Holiday Season...is Thanksgiving...Surprise Surprise! :D I love the Cranberries with Turkey, Mashed Potatoes and Stuffing...MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Wow, almost 2006...kind of crazy...

Sitting here....

and enjoying a Bowl of Hamburger Helper with Hot Sauce and a Glass of Milk...I know, not the best Combination but I like it...just thinking and thinking...

I am thinking about the past...like always...would if things have been different? Hmmmm I guess it really doesn't matter. I am also thinking about if their is True Love out there for me...even though I try not to think about it because I don't know if I could do that again. Relationships are alot of work. Everyone I meet just sucks. LOL. I know I haven't written much lately. Just trying not to Stress too much. I am Proud of my Daughter! She finally went Poo Poo in the Potty! LOL. I caught her just in time and she FINALLY understood the Potty I think. She is only two and she is so sweet and smart. Sigh. It kind of makes me Pregnant/Baby Hungry sometimes. LOL.

Being Single isn't all that bad. I mean, I do things when I want and I buy what I want. It is really cool. I sleep and eat when I want.

So I am kind of seeing this guy I met at Job Corps. OMG it is the MOST Dramatic thing I have to go through. I really don't think it is worth it for the both of us. But! I don't know I think he kind of disagrees. Anyway I have no clue what he wants or what is going on...

Anyway, I am pretty Content right now. By January I will be maxed out of My AutoSurf account which will bring me $2k every two weeks. I Hope and Pray this Program lasts forever or at least a few years so I can get rich. LOL.

I just realized I still want to Sing Professionally. I know, a Crazy thought. High School thats all I wanted to do. But now, "Single Mom, gotta Pay the Bills" UGH Mentality. Makes me sick.

"Oh shes a gold digger" I love that song. Especially the guy in the background. Nevermind decided to change the music. Now Maroon 5.

Biting my tongue as far as what I was going to say LOL...I will just keep that to myself. :)

Anyway, got to do some work on my Other Blog!

UGH Frustrations

Where do I start? Hmmmmmm...My (Ex)Husband is a Bastard for not really loving or caring about me??? HUH? YEAH. You sacrifice so much and get so little and then just end messed up anyway AND a Single Mom. I am not exaggerating about those sacrifices either! I moved all the way to Mexico for him just so he could be closer to HIS Family. I did things in Bed I didn't want to do, I let him verbally and mentally abuse me...I could go on and on! HA! Now two years later I still can't get over the JERK! That is what pisses me off the most! I am so bitter you HAVE NO IDEA! I am going to PUBLISH this Post and MAKE SURE EVERYONE KNOWS HOW I FEEL!!! I was married for 4 years and I used to say I would only be married once and live HAPPILY EVER AFTER! HA! I am not quite sure but I think that Bastard may have cheated on me too. I do not HAVE Proof but I am ALMOST POSITIVE! I need to go out Clubbing so bad...I think I am about to lose my mind.

What a Weekend!

Saturday I was VERY Busy. I had to go to an Open House with my Upline from AVON, who had an Open House for AVON, Pampered Chef, Stampin Up and Homemade Gourmet. Since, my friend already sells Pampered Chef and I already sell AVON, I decided to buy some Homemade Gourmet. Then, I had to go to an Body Shop Party and I had spent some money there and will be hosting a Party with her next month. Then I had stayed the night at my friend's house and then I came home the following morning.

I had been thinking about my latest ventures and what else I would like to set out doing. I first want to get all my Programs in order and I was thinking of starting a Paid to Read Website and a Classifieds Ads Website and make money Online that way with those Streams of Income, but that is more in the future and when I have more time Marketing My Programs and Learning Marketing on the Web. There are really so many options out there now to make money on the web. I would still like to try out alot of Programs and get my Direct Sales Programs off the ground (AVON, Jerky and Greeting Cakes). There is so much I want to do. I cannot wait till I have more time with this and be making the money I need to do with 12DP.

That is all I think about- Making Money Online. I would love to make enough to Work From Home. Meaning pulling in at LEAST $4,000-$6,000 every two weeks Online WITHOUT AutoSurfing. I also would love the time to work on my Direct Sales Companies. Building Downlines, Sales and Fundraising and such.

I know I can do it and I am trying to make that possible.

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UGH Change

You know, alot of the time I like to stay comfortable in my comfort zone, you that is why they call it that. Now, things are changing and I don't like it too much. I guess things always change and some are more obvious than others.

I went to see a friend this Saturday and things went fine. Which surprised me. My daughter went along and had alot of fun. Now I can sense things are going to start to change and I really don't know if I want that. From what I remember from Relationships is nothing good really comes out of them. The last time I saw someone ended up turning out to be a bad experience, actually all my previous experiences were like that?

My Dad is 50 and he is Single. He had only married once and that was it for him, and sometimes I think you know, once is enough for me too. My Ex Mother in Law was the same way. I think some people are meant to live and be alone and others are not. I know for sure, my mother isn't. She is the opposite. No matter what relationship I am in, you can still sense the space I put in between it. My Ex-Husband used to tell me that. Well, he also told me alot of things. I am trying to make this Post as General as possible without getting too specific.

Maybe I am just too stubborn, I don't know.

But I had a good time with my friend on Saturday and we are going to see each other again. Another thing about Relationships is they make me nervous.

Funny, you want something for the longest time and then when you get it you are like???

I always wished my husband told me ALL the things I have always wanted to hear, if he did I probably wouldn't be Single right now. :(

Like I was saying, I get used to being Single. Doing things my way. Things seem to roll alot smoother that way, especially if I am in Control.

Being a Single Mom is even harder. I can't believe my Ex hasn't tried to find me or contact me. My Daughter and I must long gone and forgotten. Jerk.

Another thing I disliked about Marriage was being put second. Men are first and they pay the bills, blah blah, blah. Women are here to Cook, Clean and Make Babies and becareful if you don't do it right he maybe out there looking for his Mistress!

Sigh.

Jerky Distributor!

I had decided I also want to Build a Downline and Sell Jerky. So, last night I got my own Store Front and an Auto Shipment of $12.00 for Jerky! I am VERY Excited! My Combination of Love of Food and Being Online made it easy for me to decide to do this.

Visit My Online Store and check out the Payout Levels and let me know if you want to sell Jerky or just buy it! But, with this Business you can do COMPLETELY Online if you want. You can also buy the by the Cases!

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Went Back to Work....

It was good. I Love My Job but the Hours Suck. I was Welcomed Back and that was nice also. I am looking toward getting a New Job Position in My Department. It won't be for a couple of months from now but I am Preparing now. We have Evaluations coming up next week and I plan to tell my employer what My Goals are for the Company.

I won't be moving to Oregon anytime soon. Too many things going on right now.

My Daughter is still sick. She has a horrible cough and she is tired of going to the Doctors. Since coming back from Oregon she has been acting like a spoiled brat. I am trying to get her back on track.

My Internet Money Ventures have been working out Great! I Plan to do more Extensive Stuff Online to Make More Money.

I am also part of a Weight Management Class at Curves and I have not been following My Diet. I know, Shame on Me. I cannot afford to go grocery shopping for all the food but I have been kind of watching what I eat. I am just not in the mood for Dieting or anything else right now. I still feel like I am Floating. I know it is kind of a dramatic word and I am not really for Drama but that is how I feel. I have felt like this for a VERY Long time. Going through the Motions. It could be Depression, I don't know. I don't really consider myself a "Depressed" kind of girl. I am a little lonely and I hate feeling that way because I love my isolation and time alone. I still think it is pathetic. I have, of course been thinking about My Ex-Husband- Ugh. I really don't know what to say about him. Part of Me wants to just Punch him and the other Part just wants me to cuddle with him. LOL. JERK.

I went to Oregon and got Drunk almost every night when my Grandparents. It was great.

Sigh. Please don't judge me, life is hard for everybody.

Back from Vacation.......

It was fun, My Daughter was sick, consistently coughing...sigh. I had to take her to the Emergency room and now she is still coughing. I gave a Treatment and a Children's Cough Tablet. I hope it works. Tomorrow she has another Visit with the Clinic.

Didn't Get The Job......Going on Vacation.....

Yeah, I didn't get the Job! They said they liked me though and would like me to apply later. I am not too bummed about it, I have other things in the works!

I am going on Vacation tomorrow! I will be gone until next Wednesday and this is my LAST Post until then.

Talk to you ALL LATER!

Jacquelyn

New Things to Happen....

I figure if I get this New Job then that will leave me more of an Opportunity to get more serious with my AVON Business. I can then build My Downline and maybe a Solid Customer Base because then I would be on a Normal Schedule. I had also signed up for Greeting Cakes Company, I am very excited about that because I think they would be a Great Addition to My AVON Business. I would also like to do Pampered Chef but I am going to hold off for a while.

I am very Excited about the possibilities with AutoSurfing. I figure I could get all my Credit and Debt in Order, have some money in Savings and Some in Investing and be good and of course for Tithing. When following the guidelines for Rich Dad and The One Minute Millionaire.

Like I keep saying...next week is THE Week for Me. If I get this Job then I need to transfer from the other Curves I am going to now to the one where I live at. I will also be going on Vacation so I will have to talk to My Boss about that and also about My Schedule. Next week could be life changing! The Vacation in itself will be good so I can clear My Head.

UGH....Stressing....

I swear if it isn't freaking one thing, than its another....

Next week is a week I am anticipating if I get that Job or not...it is also the week I go on Vacation...and I had also joined a Weight Management Class from Curves which officially starts now.

PLUS! My Parents don't want to babysit for me if I work on a Saturday. But, they can't be happy with a normal schedule instead of working a split shift. Which leaves me working 7-7 pm. I swear they are jerks and it pisses me off! I hate bending over backwards for them and then paying for their stupid Rent so I can hear them bitch. I am just at the end of my rope.

So whether or not I get the Job...or anything else...I am just screwed in all directions. I am going to take that JOB if I get it.

UGH...I hate Stressing. Then of course, there is Money. But I think I have that taken care of.

Oh and then I get Lonely and Stress some more about My Husband. It is quite pathetic.

I just HOPE Everything works out.

I feel like a New Woman!

I had got my hair done yesterday and I feel so much better. It was great! I also spent alot of money too but I figure Why not?

I may get a Job Interview next week and I am also going to Oregon the week after for Vacation. Oh the change of Scenery will do ALOT of good! Since I will be moving to Oregon it will be nice to see what they have up there plus my Grandparents are up there. I plan to get a Car and a Condo. I am VERY Excited.

I am applying for a new Job in my Company and I also applied for a Job at home. So, I am just going to try out for both and see what happens.

I have been doing some things Online to make money and it seems to be working out well. I have created a Website and Blog to keep track of my experience and efforts to Make Money Online.

I have also been Working Out at Curves and been watching what I eat. So far it is working, I really don't have much to lose, it is just mostly around the gut.

Being Single is cool, but the whole Single Scene just sucks. I am not sure which is worse? Married or Single? I like getting my way and I know if I am married I cannot always get my way, I also like my solitude and I cannot get that when I am married either.

But anyway, I better Ping this.

Well, my Baby was sick...

So, I stayed home to be with her today. I usually don't stay home at all unless she is sick. I really cannot afford to stay home. I am contemplating Working from Home while I make money doing the Other Stuff I do to Make Money Online.

This whole work thing just sucks, it isn't that I don't like working, because I do, it is just I work these LONG Hours. UGH. I also like to have alot of free time.

Well, I am going to Ping this. I hope I get some more comments.