Monday, October 31, 2005

Happy Halloween!

Sigh. What a day...Work was Great as usual. I Won a Halloween Contest. I LOVE Winning. :)

So, I finally got done with the last guy I was seeing...he and I were sooooooooooooo not right for each other, in more ways than one LOL...anyway...I always saw this hot guy at work...OMG I think he's hot and I finally get the nerve to even ask about him and it turns out he has a girlfriend! FIGURES!

So, now loneliness is striking me again, but whatever I am used it to it. 2 years, what else is new???

I did take my daughter Trick or Treating! It was great. She was tired so I had to cut it a little short but she had fun and got some candy that I do not want her to eat LOL. 2 year olds do not need Candy.

I think I am just too weird to get involved with anyone. I am also worried about getting involved with egomaniacs and I have to worry...UGH no. Although dating complete nerds and jerks are not at the top of my list neither. Where can I Win? Not likely. Plus, who wants a Woman with Baggage and a small gut who could care less if you loved her or not?? :D Plus I don't think any man out there deserves Me anyway.
:P

Anyway, I am working on a Plan to Make LOTS of Money so I can hire an Housekeeper and just do the stuff I enjoy and be with my daughter, and let me tell you with the stuff I am doing lately it isn't no Pipe Dream.

I miss the 90's. Sigh. Time just flies by...I cannot believe I will be 24 next year. Do you even KNOW how scary that is???

I will be working on a Divorce in 2006 and I will also be moving to Oregon. BIG CHANGES AHEAD.

My Favorite Holiday that is coming up...since this is the Holiday Season...is Thanksgiving...Surprise Surprise! :D I love the Cranberries with Turkey, Mashed Potatoes and Stuffing...MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Wow, almost 2006...kind of crazy...

Monday, October 24, 2005

Sitting here....

and enjoying a Bowl of Hamburger Helper with Hot Sauce and a Glass of Milk...I know, not the best Combination but I like it...just thinking and thinking...

I am thinking about the past...like always...would if things have been different? Hmmmm I guess it really doesn't matter. I am also thinking about if their is True Love out there for me...even though I try not to think about it because I don't know if I could do that again. Relationships are alot of work. Everyone I meet just sucks. LOL. I know I haven't written much lately. Just trying not to Stress too much. I am Proud of my Daughter! She finally went Poo Poo in the Potty! LOL. I caught her just in time and she FINALLY understood the Potty I think. She is only two and she is so sweet and smart. Sigh. It kind of makes me Pregnant/Baby Hungry sometimes. LOL.

Being Single isn't all that bad. I mean, I do things when I want and I buy what I want. It is really cool. I sleep and eat when I want.

So I am kind of seeing this guy I met at Job Corps. OMG it is the MOST Dramatic thing I have to go through. I really don't think it is worth it for the both of us. But! I don't know I think he kind of disagrees. Anyway I have no clue what he wants or what is going on...

Anyway, I am pretty Content right now. By January I will be maxed out of My AutoSurf account which will bring me $2k every two weeks. I Hope and Pray this Program lasts forever or at least a few years so I can get rich. LOL.

I just realized I still want to Sing Professionally. I know, a Crazy thought. High School thats all I wanted to do. But now, "Single Mom, gotta Pay the Bills" UGH Mentality. Makes me sick.

"Oh shes a gold digger" I love that song. Especially the guy in the background. Nevermind decided to change the music. Now Maroon 5.

Biting my tongue as far as what I was going to say LOL...I will just keep that to myself. :)

Anyway, got to do some work on my Other Blog!

Thursday, October 20, 2005

UGH Frustrations

Where do I start? Hmmmmmm...My (Ex)Husband is a Bastard for not really loving or caring about me??? HUH? YEAH. You sacrifice so much and get so little and then just end messed up anyway AND a Single Mom. I am not exaggerating about those sacrifices either! I moved all the way to Mexico for him just so he could be closer to HIS Family. I did things in Bed I didn't want to do, I let him verbally and mentally abuse me...I could go on and on! HA! Now two years later I still can't get over the JERK! That is what pisses me off the most! I am so bitter you HAVE NO IDEA! I am going to PUBLISH this Post and MAKE SURE EVERYONE KNOWS HOW I FEEL!!! I was married for 4 years and I used to say I would only be married once and live HAPPILY EVER AFTER! HA! I am not quite sure but I think that Bastard may have cheated on me too. I do not HAVE Proof but I am ALMOST POSITIVE! I need to go out Clubbing so bad...I think I am about to lose my mind.

Sunday, October 16, 2005

What a Weekend!

Saturday I was VERY Busy. I had to go to an Open House with my Upline from AVON, who had an Open House for AVON, Pampered Chef, Stampin Up and Homemade Gourmet. Since, my friend already sells Pampered Chef and I already sell AVON, I decided to buy some Homemade Gourmet. Then, I had to go to an Body Shop Party and I had spent some money there and will be hosting a Party with her next month. Then I had stayed the night at my friend's house and then I came home the following morning.

I had been thinking about my latest ventures and what else I would like to set out doing. I first want to get all my Programs in order and I was thinking of starting a Paid to Read Website and a Classifieds Ads Website and make money Online that way with those Streams of Income, but that is more in the future and when I have more time Marketing My Programs and Learning Marketing on the Web. There are really so many options out there now to make money on the web. I would still like to try out alot of Programs and get my Direct Sales Programs off the ground (AVON, Jerky and Greeting Cakes). There is so much I want to do. I cannot wait till I have more time with this and be making the money I need to do with 12DP.

That is all I think about- Making Money Online. I would love to make enough to Work From Home. Meaning pulling in at LEAST $4,000-$6,000 every two weeks Online WITHOUT AutoSurfing. I also would love the time to work on my Direct Sales Companies. Building Downlines, Sales and Fundraising and such.

I know I can do it and I am trying to make that possible.

Friday, October 14, 2005

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Sunday, October 09, 2005

UGH Change

You know, alot of the time I like to stay comfortable in my comfort zone, you that is why they call it that. Now, things are changing and I don't like it too much. I guess things always change and some are more obvious than others.

I went to see a friend this Saturday and things went fine. Which surprised me. My daughter went along and had alot of fun. Now I can sense things are going to start to change and I really don't know if I want that. From what I remember from Relationships is nothing good really comes out of them. The last time I saw someone ended up turning out to be a bad experience, actually all my previous experiences were like that?

My Dad is 50 and he is Single. He had only married once and that was it for him, and sometimes I think you know, once is enough for me too. My Ex Mother in Law was the same way. I think some people are meant to live and be alone and others are not. I know for sure, my mother isn't. She is the opposite. No matter what relationship I am in, you can still sense the space I put in between it. My Ex-Husband used to tell me that. Well, he also told me alot of things. I am trying to make this Post as General as possible without getting too specific.

Maybe I am just too stubborn, I don't know.

But I had a good time with my friend on Saturday and we are going to see each other again. Another thing about Relationships is they make me nervous.

Funny, you want something for the longest time and then when you get it you are like???

I always wished my husband told me ALL the things I have always wanted to hear, if he did I probably wouldn't be Single right now. :(

Like I was saying, I get used to being Single. Doing things my way. Things seem to roll alot smoother that way, especially if I am in Control.

Being a Single Mom is even harder. I can't believe my Ex hasn't tried to find me or contact me. My Daughter and I must long gone and forgotten. Jerk.

Another thing I disliked about Marriage was being put second. Men are first and they pay the bills, blah blah, blah. Women are here to Cook, Clean and Make Babies and becareful if you don't do it right he maybe out there looking for his Mistress!

Sigh.

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Jerky Distributor!

I had decided I also want to Build a Downline and Sell Jerky. So, last night I got my own Store Front and an Auto Shipment of $12.00 for Jerky! I am VERY Excited! My Combination of Love of Food and Being Online made it easy for me to decide to do this.

Visit My Online Store and check out the Payout Levels and let me know if you want to sell Jerky or just buy it! But, with this Business you can do COMPLETELY Online if you want. You can also buy the by the Cases!

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